Utilitarianism.

Musings

2010-08-23T12:12:00.004+08:00

I was thinking one day, thinking of us,

then I wondered, what were you to me.?

So I thought and I thought and thought a little more

And I came up with a list of what I managed.

Firstly you're my love, the light of my life,

You're my soul-mate, my undying companion,

You're my babe, and nobody else's,

You're my happiness, my angelic smile,

You're my tears, the ones that I wouldn't stop,

You're my one and only, unique in this world and that..

And finally, I realized, there is a single word that encompasses all that you are to me, all that we are.

You're nothing to me if not Mine, as I would be nothing to you if not Yours.

So, here it is, the fruits of my musings, the one thing that I wanted to share with you, my love. That I would only be yours for as long as you are mine, forever and a day, plus eternity.

6 Months Inactive.!?!

2010-07-22T15:14:00.003+08:00

Lexandl .!! You slacker. >_< .!! We've been together for ALMOST a YEAR and you've stopped at 6 MONTHS.!?! People are going to assume that we didn't last more than our 6 months and you became an anti-social lazy de-motivated dummy after our happy 6 months.!! GRRRR.!

Well, here I am, the awesome awesome girlfriend who has to take over the duty of informing--- Ok, who am I kidding D: .! I'm just here to type something to you, for you and bless those who actually checked this quarter-dead blog in hopes of a new update. Well, here it is, and sorry to disappoint those who were hoping for the Lexandl but all you'll be getting is the infinitely more awesome EmiLy.!! (Which, remind me again, how is that any worse.? Hence, how is it anything that I should apologize about.? Senseless D: )

Anyway.~ It's almost going to be our one year anniversary.!~ One year.! 1 year.!! Hahaha. This 28th July 2010, it'll be officially 1 year. Maybe one day the world will know our story, but for now, it's just between us. And maybe you could tell your friends about it over 'Milo Ais' (which is the ONLY thing you ever drink at mamaks and warongs and stalls-beside-the-roads).. Anyway.. We can't go to fancy places or celebrate it elaborately as we're crack-bottom sea-bed broke. D: .! Aren't you glad I didn't just say "YOU'RE broke" and typed "WE'RE broke" instead.? See.? We even have similarities financially. Only in this context however. I'm still getting my FairLady 370 >=] .! And you can sit in the passenger speed while I over-take Kancils and Kelisas. And god forgive those who overtake me RAWR.! Hahah. Anyway....

It's been a long long 6 months. There were tears, there was even more laughter, and a butt-load of comedy acts. Such as..... There was this time Lexx------- Okok, just between us, love. No outsiders allowed. (More's the pity cause it was just ÜBER HILLARIOUS.!)

This is just a short post as I'm still in college... So.. Let me just thank you.. For :

1. .. always sending me good night messages without fail (Not counting the times you had no credit and falling asleep cause you were utterly exhausted.... I mean, it's not like you fell asleep k------ OkoK, Hush.! :'D )

2. .. always cheering me up when I needed it most.

3. .. working hard at your job so that we can enjoy our Saturdays together eating good food

4 .. (Last but .. not really least) putting the blanket over me when I fell asleep without one. *Bigggg Smiles :'D

I love you and only you, Lexandl. Forever and a day plus eternity. =^^= MwarRrKS.!

Happy 6th Month.

2010-01-27T19:48:00.005+08:00

In this world, you will want to find someone to love, someone to care for, someone to give your all. In this world, you will want to make that person the father or the mother of your child or children. There will be that one person whom, by just looking at his or her smile, you know that he or she is the one you want to spend the rest of your life with. Have you, like me, found that person? I have, and I'm happy. Come midnight, it'll be our 6th month anniversary, my girlfriend and I that is. 6 months.. time really does fly.

Happy 6th Month love. :)

Six Months and still in love.

Six Months and still wanting more.

Six Months and moving forward.

Six Months and never looking back.

Six Months love, can you believe it? :)

I love only you, EmiLy. I wish I had taken pictures of you, they would really come in handy now. Forgive me. Hmm, Happy 6th month love, and thank you for everything. Don't forget to smile as you read alright? That smile of yours isn't meant to be hidden. Let the world see just how beautiful you are, love.

Gratitude.

Everything you have ever done.

Everything you have ever said.

Everything and anything, down

to the little things like that of

1, 2, 3.

I thank you.

Thank you for putting the effort that you do in everything that you do for me. Thank you for being the reason behind my smiles. Thank you for being the sole reason behind my happiness. I know that I've found someone really special, I know that you are special to me because whenever you smile I get a happy feeling inside. Somewhat.. Satisfactory. It's satisfaction from seeing you smile in response to my actions. Lastly, thank you for being the reason behind my sadness. Are you wondering why I'm thanking you for something like that, love? Because if I were to be hurt, because if I were to be upset, because if I were to shed a tear or two, I'd want you to be the reason behind them all. I'd want the person behind it all to be you, because I'd rather be uppsetted, hurt, and crying because of you. I don't want it to be anyone else. I love only you, more than anyone.

Apology.

From time to time,

I'll mess up. I'll

hurt you.

Unknowingly,

never deliberately.

Forgive me for all that I've

done wrong. I

Love only

you.

Now it's true, nobody's relationship is ever perfect. There's always arguments in relationships. I'm sorry for being a pain in the ass at times, however I'm sure that you know well enough that everything I do for you is what's best for you. Even if you dislike it, it's always what's best for you. I love only you EmiLy, please remind yourself every day. I'm sorry that I can get pretty selfish at times, and not to forget, stubborn. I'm sorry that I've upsetted you again and again. However, was there ever a time where I didn't bother cheering you up even though it's RIGHT after upsetting you? Was there ever a time where I allowed you to be upset? Never. I've never once stood idly by and allowed you to be upset. I know it's silly to want to be the one who makes you smile RIGHT after being the one who screwed things up, but no matter how I look at it, I just can't allow you to be upset. That's why regardless of the situation, regardless of who's right and who's wrong, I put cheering you up first. That's how things are between us, and it will always remain that way. I love only you, more than anything.

To still be madly in love with you at the age of 50, was what I once said to you. I will keep my word EmiLy. I promise. :) Happy 6th Month love.

Considering the fact that I give you a note every Tuesday,

how many do you think you will have by the age of 50? :)

That girl is mine.

2010-01-03T21:57:00.003+08:00

In the afternoon..

*Looks to the left*

What do I see?

A beautiful girl sitting next to me playing DotA.

In the evening..

*Looks to the right*

I still see a beautiful girl sitting next to me, playing DotA.

I must be lucky, to be able to sit next to a beautiful girl in a cyber cafe as I played DotA today.

I'm lucky because that girl is mine. ;D

I'm lucky that that beautiful girl, is you. I'm lucky that that beautiful girl, you, is mine. I'm lucky that I have you as my girlfriend EmiLy.. and every time I looked at you today, I kept asking myself "Why is she so beautiful?" and it makes me want to give you a kiss on your cheek. Oh love.. The fun we had ever since SPM ended. :)

Walking next to you makes me feel high and mighty. I'm more than proud to have you as my girlfriend, no matter what other people might say or think.. I'll always be proud of you, and I'll always be proud to have you. My heart is yours, and I'm forever yours. Even though I'll be in the company of others when college starts, you will be the only one I want and need. I love you, only you. Let me be the only one you will ever want and need too, love. Your college is starting soon, hmm.. if only this year Taylor's only got girls registered for their SAM. >_< my girlfriend is mine, and mine only. !

I love only you, more than anyone.

I love only you, more than anything.

I love only you, forever and a day plus eternity.

Nothing's going to change that love.

Nothing's going to come in between us.

Take care love, and I'll see you when I do.

P/S : On January 4th, Lexandl will start his college. Update. :)

The Departure.

2009-12-14T15:18:00.003+08:00

Where do I start? It's been a long time since I last blogged, and a lot has happened since then. When I say 'a lot' I mean a lot. Well, SPM's over. ~~One~~ Many would think that Lexandl would be a tad busy to spend time with his friends, but look.. I'm not busy (well, other than with work.) and why? because my girlfriend is in Korea having her not-so-time-of-her-life there. She's missing me, I can tell. Haha. I love you, EmiLy. :)

Alright, it's been a really long time since I last blogged.. and when I last blogged I think I mentioned about blogging about work? Let's start from there.

Let's see, to those who don't already know. I'm working at Brussels Beer Cafe at Jaya One. Trust me, once you work at Food and Beverages outlets, it'll change your point of view for good. Once you're on the inside (and by 'inside' I mean working there) you'll see and know things you don't want to. Things like.. if food were to drop on the floor, they'd just pick it up and serve it to you anyway.! Things like.. roaches crawling all over the straws and plates, etc. Haha. Yeah yeah, this is the ugly truth. The truth that we, F&B outlets, protect you from. What I do at Brussels? I deliver the food, the drinks, and the bill. I am what they'd call 'Runner'. Anyway, that was what I used to do everyday.. until recently. :) After the resignation of a few senior staffs, leaving me the only senior left amongst the other runners. There are obviously a few other seniors, but they're under servicing. They do things like taking the orders and setting up plates for the customers. Oh and not to forget, listen to the runners. Because a Runner's main priority is to deliver. So, assuming that upon delivery of.. French Fries. The customer would like some Chili sauce, and they happen to ask a runner for it, all a runner has to do is inform one of the service staffs. Mah Bitches.~ ;D Lol.. and yes, considering I'm the only senior left amongst the runners.. all I really do is boss people around. Which is sooooo relaxing. You make people do the delivering and you stay behind, which btw is what you're SUPPOSED to do. So don't look at me like I'm a bad person. It's not like ever since I became the leader of the runners I started standing with my arms crossed more or something. Sheeesh.~ (xixi.~ don't say a word love. Hush. *kiss*)

Anyway, so like.. this customer asked for my name the other day. The dialogue went like this.

Customer : Hey man, what's your name? I've never gotten a chance to ask.

Me : Oh, it's Lexandl, sir.

Customer : Oh, Alexander.?

Me : No, it's Lexandl. *spells it out*

Customer : Huh.? Okay.. What's your Chinese name?

Me : It's Gan Yan Hien.

Customer : I've certainly never heard of Lexandl before. It's a nice name.

Me : Oh.. have you heard of Gan Yan Hien before?

*customer stones..*

Customer : Haha, no I haven't.

Well that was a waste of time. Blogging about work that is. What I REALLY want to blog about is my girlfriend.~ :) lol, Haha, it's been a while. Cut me some slack. Sheesh. So like, SPM ended on the 8th of December for her. She finished her Chemistry paper 3 in like.. 20 minutes and had to stone for another 10 minutes till she could leave the hall. Oh man, I remember having a tough time for my Chemistry paper 3. Lol. Life's easy when you're smart I suppose. Anyway.. I know I may not have updated when it was our 4th month anniversary love, and I'm sorry. I'm also sorry I didn't make you anything, unlike the 2nd and 3rd month. Anyway, my girlfriend and I got together on a Tuesday. It was July 28th. It was in November that I had the random thought of.. giving her a little note every Tuesday. One day when I was working, I just had the random thought of writing on one of Brussels' serviettes. On the very next day, when she was done with school (I wait for her to be done with school everyday btw. It's.. quality time with my girlfriend. :) I'd wait until her mother comes to pick her up) I gave it to her and then it struck me. Hey, why not make every Tuesday special? I'll give her a little note every Tuesday. I've given her a few serviettes, and a few coasters. lol. Coasters from Brussels Beer Cafe of course. Haha. Well.. SPM ended on the 8th and we went out that day for a while.. window shopped a little bit here and there and then we went to Cold Storage to get ice-cream. She wanted to settle for the RM5.99 one, but I didn't allow. I went for the RM25++ for 1 pint. Lol, and then we also got chocolate rice sprinkles and Tim-Tam. The outstanding amount for those 3 items was RM39 ++ and girlfriend wasn't too happy about it. Haha, it was funny though. I wasn't expecting it to be that expensive either.. but, oh well :) Only the best for my girlfriend :) good ice-cream good biscuits. ;D Tim-Tam was RM11 ++ btw. Lol. Then we went to get DvD's so that we could watch at her place. I've been wanting to see if she is one who cries watching a sad movie. Hahaha, so we watched Marley and Me. To those who have already watched the movie, there was a scene where Jennifer Aniston took off her clothes to go skinny-dip in the pool. My girlfriend covered my eyes, like.. what the hell right? Lol, sheesh.~ I'm 19 love. Haha. (her 11-years old brother was watching with us too) and right when I said "why are you covering my eyes and not his?" that was when I realized he had already turned his back against the TV. Oh.. classic. The old days. Back when ~~all~~ some of us were a goody-goody, we'd turn out backs on whatever's playing just because so much as a shirt came off. Note that I used 'some', because I happen to have a friend whom apparently, intended to cut out the left side of his kindergarten teacher's breast and store it in a chest back home. Note again that I had 'kindergarten' in Bold. So yeah, it's people like these who wouldn't turn their backs when shirts go off. Haha.

I had 3 days to spend with my girlfriend after SPM, only 3. She had to leave for Korea on the night of the 3rd day. Day 2 was spent following her to Taylor's Hartamas to enroll for college. She went with her Dad, and I came along. Can you imagine? At first her dad said I can't come along because there was a bicycle in the back seat of the car. After having to drive no longer than a minute, this is what her father asked her "Do you really want him to come?" and she immediately answered "yes please.!" So her father turned the car around and took the bicycle out of the back seat. I'm amazed, I didn't think something like that would actually happen. I love you EmiLy, I guess things just go our way huh? :) Day 2 continued with her best friend, whom also happen to be her ex (yeah, believe it. Lol.) and her brother and father at the mamak. Girlfriend didn't have anything to eat until 4 in the evening, so yeah.. we went out. Then as we got back, we watched Astro Boy. Another DvD that we bought from the day before. (yes, which I've failed to mention.) We didn't get to complete the movie, we had to leave for dinner. Again, all of us. Including her mother of course. We went to Kayu Nasi Kandar in SS2. Girlfriend said that she will choose what I eat that night, and she took rice, vege, sotong, and chicken. Which I wasn't comfortable with, and when I learned that the plate cost 14 bucks, I didn't dare accept it. So my girlfriend and I switched plates. Obviously I'm not going to eat something like that on the very first day out with my girlfriend's family. ._. Her parents would hate me, right? Lol. And yeah, since my girlfriend and I switched plates.. the minute she sat down, her father said " wah, you are eating so much?" what would he have thought of ME if we hadn't switched plates? Obviously he wouldn't be as comfortable as to just voice out whatever he would be thinking of me if my girlfriend and I hadn't switched plates, yes? Lol. Dropped my girlfriend home, and then drove home.

Day 3 - Final day.

Met up at 11 something to go out to OU, window shopped a little bit for later that day. (Girlfriend was shopping for clothes to wear in Korea.) My girlfriend isn't one who wears dresses, anymore. As we were walking around, we passed by Sub and she saw a black dress on display. She said that it's a really nice dress, so I told her to go try. After all, I said I'd get her a dress. So we went into Sub, and the staff there picked out a few other dresses for her to try as well. My girlfriend looked really really beautiful in all those dresses. The best in the one she bought later that day of course, reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalllllllllllllllllllllyyyyyyyyyyyy sexy. She likes it too. :) and I can't wait to see her in it again. ;D I tried on some clothes too, at Topman though. Been planning to get a new pair of jeans for over a year now. Lol, and I don't know why it took me so long to register the fact that she was trying to get me to be her personal 'L' from Death Note the minute she got me to try on a long-sleeved white T-shirt into my head. It was only hours later that it occurred to me. Haha, which is rather funny. I was only joking when I said that, but.. haha. Unfortunately for her, the material used for the T-shirt was really thin. So what happens when you wear a fitting and thin WHITE T-shirt? You figure it out. :) (that is, of course if anyone of you are actually still reading. Lol.) Went to Centrepoint for Lunch, at Pizza Uno. I had the Carbonara Fettuccine, while she had.. something Vongole. Hers had clamps in it, and I asked for them to add mushrooms in it, because my girlfriend loveeeeeeeessss mushrooms. Not half as much as she loves me though......... I think. Haha. Apparently.. we were both really happy during lunch. We're both not saying that we've never been happy with other people we've dated before, we're just saying that we've never been any happier. :) We were sitting across each other, and I couldn't help but to lean forward halfway across the table just to talk to her. Can you imagine? Having to lean forward with your arms crossed and elbows on the table, just so you could get a little closer to the person sitting across you? Lol. I was really, really happy that day. :) Best lunch I've ever had. Period. :) Not the best in terms of food........ :p but definitely the best lunch I've ever had :) Lol, I love only you EmiLy Yew, more than anyone more than anything. Forever and a day.. plus eternity :) After lunch, we met up with her mother.. and we shopped for real. Lol. It was a fun day. Guys would be staring at my girlfriend and I would dislike it, girls would be staring at me and she'd dislike it. Haha, it was a nice day. :) Went home with my girlfriend as her mother stayed to shop a little while more, we asked if she needs help but she said it's okay. So we headed back first and then watched a few scenes of a movie. Yes, a few scenes. Lol, girlfriend couldn't help but to fast forward through the movie at all the boring scenes. Had dinner with her family, lol. It was a nice day. :) until she left for the airport. The minute she got into the cab, I started to feel upset. The minute I started to compose a message, I started to tear. The entire day, I knew it would come to this, her having to leave me that is. The entire day, I was preparing myself. Although I know she'll be back, although I know she'll only be gone for 7 days... but that's 7 days of not having to talk to her. That's 7 days of not having to see her, that's 7 days of not having to hear her voice. That's 7 days of not being able to spend time with her. I cried. . I couldn't help but to cry. Worried of what may happen to her on her trip there, worried that we'd be so far away and I wouldn't be able to do anything about it if anything were to happen. She called me, as she hid in the toilet in the aeroplane. To tell me that she loves me. It was a really nice day, it was fun. Today, marks the 4th day since she left for Korea. I'm getting by.

Yesterday she called me from a public phone, I was really really happy the minute I heard her voice. Knowing that it was my girlfriend on the other side, and she's fine and that I'm actually on the phone with her, made me really happy, and I couldn't help but to smile really widely. If you are reading this love, thank you for everything. If you are reading this love, enjoy yourself in Korea okay? Don't be depressed that you are away from me, try to make time away from me worth it. (although, that is impossible.. :p lol, but I'd like you to try.) As you are probably snowboarding away right now, I'm shirtless at home and sweating because of the freaking weather even though it's raining here. As you are snowboarding right now, I'm getting ready for work now. This post took me an hour and 40 minutes to type, and I'm going to be late if I don't leave now. If you are reading this love, forgive me for all the 'you's and 'girlfriend's aren't in purple. I don't have the time right now, and lastly.. I'm sorry that I wasn't online earlier today, and when I was, you weren't anymore. And when I was watching my sitcom in full-screen, you came online again and I didn't realize until you were already offline. Fuck this shit. ._. I love only you EmiLy.. more than anyone more than anything. Forever and a day plus eternity. :) Take care okay love? Return to me safely and in good health, return to me the way you left me.. rightfully mine, and only mine. :) I love only you, getting ready for work now. I'm waiting for you love, waiting for you to return to me. So, hurry.. and return to me. :)

The million-dollar question.

Does my girlfriend cry watching sad movies?

Yes, she does.

Although, she did a really good job holding back her tears the other day. Hahahaha. Oh love... I miss you so much. :) pai.!

Update.

2009-10-29T15:17:00.004+08:00

I'm going to start things off with my Happy 3rd month, then only about work. (If I feel like it. lol.)

Unfortunately, My LG Secret is spoilt at the moment so I couldn't take a picture of the card I made for my girlfriend on our Happy 3rd month. (Not that it's that good anyway. >_> ) So yeah.. There won't be any pictures for this post. (Surprise surprise) Anyway, here's a piece of advice for you readers. Never ever get flip/slide phones. They're screwed up inventions. iPhones too, hear that love? :p

Let's see..

Happy 3rd Month love. :)

Why is it that I tell you everything that I've done in my past life inclusive of my sins and mistakes?

Because I want you to know me before it's too late for you to back out, because I want you to love me for who I was, who I am, and who I may be in the future.

Why is it that I always always have really long messages waiting to be read by you whenever you wake up? (even though it's only going to be a short nap. To my readers who don't know what is it that I do, I send really long messages to my girlfriend whenever she's asleep. Like maybe.. 18 messages long? On my girlfriend's birthday I sent her a 42 messages-long good night message. w00t, crazy boyfriend. Anyway, I used to only send them whenever I'm about to go to sleep. Hence, only during the night. However, NOW I send them whenever she's asleep. It's so that..)

It's so that when you wake up, you will always remember why is it that you liked me in the beginning. Because I've always been one to have long messages waiting to be read by you when you wake up. It's so that you will feel special, because you deserve to feel that way :)

Why is it that I always always start every message that I send to you whenever you are asleep with 'I love only you. :)'?

Because that is what I want you to know the instant you wake up. I want you to know that I love only you and that my heart doesn't belong to anyone else but you. :)

Why is it that I always open the door to the car for you first?

Because I love you and surprisingly.. it feels nice. (besides, I've promised you that I would always always open the door for you first. ;D and you know I'm not all talk. I will be the same person 3 years, 24 years into our relationship as I was 3 months into our relationship.)

Why is it that I have always always been there, outside your school, whenever you are done?

Because if every time you are going to be on the look out for me whenever school's out, then that's where I'll be. Because I know that if you were to be on the look out, you would have a little hope that I might be there. I don't want you to look around only to find that I am not there. Because I love you and I will always always be there for you. Both figuratively and literally. :) I don't ever want you to feel disappointed or upset.

Why is it that you are the only girl that I feel like holding her hand as I introduce her to my father as my girlfriend even though I clearly know that my father doesn't want me to be dating at this age?

Because I love you. Because I love only you. Because no other girl has loved me, because no other girl has given, because no other girl has sacrificed as much as you do. Because you are meant for me, because you.. are my soul-mate. :) Because we're serious, because if I were to want to bring you for Chinese New Year dinners with the Gan family, this is the first step. Because my father will have to accept you one day, and it starts on the 2nd night after SPM. You wouldn't have any problems right? Considering it's just SO EASY to make conversations with parents, is it not? :)

(oh shoot, I just woke my girlfriend up for tuition a little too early. Totally forgot that she ate lunch already, so she doesn't need an hour to get ready for tuition. Woops. lol. Oh well, she loves me, that's why she puts up with it. Haha. Yet to face your wrath huh?)

EmiLy, I've never been more serious than this. After SPM, the second night after SPM, you will be coming over to my house for dinner and when I introduce you to my father as my girlfriend I will be holding your hand. Here's to us, forever and a day plus eternity. :)

Happy 3rd month again, love :)

p/s : why is it that I comply to all your requests?

because I love you and I'm only capable of the little things like these.

P / s s : why is it that I've given you the 'final say' on who gets to pay all our dining out bills?

Because I love you, because I know it'll make you feel better that I don't pay everything every time. and I know that if I don't give you the final say, I'll be the one paying every time. I love you. Only you. :)

No time to blog about work btw, some other time la. It's not important anyway. Lul.

I'm yours as you are mine. :)

I love you.

2009-10-01T02:20:00.002+08:00

Did it ever occur to you that I just KNOW?
Know that you will still love me that is.

Because I believe in you, in us.
Because I believe that what we have is definitely definitely a first for us, and it's nice. (is it not?)
Because I believe you love me.
Because I believe you will be missing me.
Because I believe you have never met a guy like me.
Because I believe in 'Forever and a day + eternity'.
Because I believe that ever since the 4th of June, we've had more fun together than with others.
(you know, I was trying to recall what date was it that we first talked on MSN, and my mind just kept telling me it was the 4th. I checked our conversation history, and it really was.)
(Reading old conversation history is rather nice huh? Did you know that we talked for almost an hour without pause the first time on MSN? Like, we didn't bother about anything else.. but each other. Lol. I guess.. ever since the start, the attraction was already there? :) )
Because I believe.. Don't you, love? :)

Because I believe, EmiLy.
Because I believe, love.
Because I believe in us,
Because I believe what we have is love.
Because you are awesome,
and I'm wonderful.

P / s : I'll be missing you sooo much. :)

P / s s : It's just yet another test. :)

Happy 17th Birthday love. :)

2009-09-27T12:28:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday, Love. ;D

L'occitane's 100 ml Cherry Blossom Eau de Toilette.
Flying in the first breeze of Spring,
Cherry blossom is so rare and precious.

Spring huh? My Miss Japanese Springtime. :) Yeah.. I guess no one else would understand this nickname huh? I love you.

Happy 17th Birthday, again. ;D I'm sorry, but I forgot to take a picture of the card I made for you. (which I spent 4 hours working on. but yeah, not important :p) So.. I don't have many pictures (only have this one picture -_-) to go around. I'm also sorry that I forgot to remind you to take pictures yesterday, and for not remembering myself. Ugh. I love you Emily, and yesterday.. has got to be the best day for this year thus far. I thank you. :)

Yes, so maaaaaaaaaaaybe I splurged a little too soon with a gift like that. For some reason, I wasn't hesitant nor reluctant. Which was a first really, I wonder why. I've never been one to spend much on gifts for people, and even if I did I'd be secretly hoping that I hadn't. Then I'll wonder why is it that I feel that way. Anyway, my point is.. I've never felt like it was 'Okay' to splurge like that. I'm pretty sure it's a first, I'm pretty sure I love you. :) *kisses EmiLy's left cheek.*

Let's move on to the birthday celebration. (sorry Yuki, failed to take pictures. Another picture-less post. This is obviously if you're still reading. lol.)

"Oh look! A cow!" Hahahahahaha. Okay, no more on this.

The celebration huh? Let's see.. where to begin? where to begin..? I recalled you telling me that you like Curry Puffs with fillings in it, like.. with eggs and chicken and stuff. (obviously with the usual curry and potatoes as well.) And I remember there being a really good curry puff stall in SS2. So I took the effort in getting you one, because I'm like that, I'm going to spoil you. With things you like. (wait till you see what I have for you today! your actual birthday.) Note that I've never tried the curry puff for myself, so I'm sorry there weren't any egg or chicken in it. -_- I'm glad you haven't had breakfast then, my impulse on getting you a curry puff turned out to be beneficial after all. *psst* You looked amazing love. :) Indeed your fashion sense is different than that of others, you amaze me :) Aishiteru yo. I'm sorry for letting the little things get to me, I'll be better.

Not long after, we left for OU. Having lunch at Korean BBQ Plaza. It was my first time there. It was fun. Haha. It's a place where you have to cook your own food btw. Somewhat like Steamboat, you get the idea right? Anyway.. Lunch was alright. Now, I WOULD say amazing. But when your girlfriend makes you eat a BOWL of cabbage, it really takes away the 'umph!', the kick, in all that's nice. It was like this..

*EmiLy takes a pumpkin and puts it on my plate.*
LexxiE : I don't want.. -_-
EmiLy : You have to try. (padahal sendiri didn't try -_-)
LexxiE : Okay, if I'm trying.. YOU have to try some too. *splits pumpkin by 1/4* Here. Try it.
*silence*
LexxiE : Tell you what. You try this, and I'll finish up all the vege on this plate. (yeah.. i just realized. I said 'this plate'.. meaning she made me eat 2 bowls of cabbage, not one!)
*EmiLy instantly reaches for the pumpkin.*
LexxiE : Oh and you cannot make any expression of disgust.
*EmiLy eats the pumpkin*

And I swear.. it was so cute. Lol. Oh love, I'm sorry to have ~~made you eat the pumpkin~~ restricted you from making any expressions. Haha. (anyway.. continuing) So yeah, my girlfriend thought that it would only be fair that she avenge herself by making me eat 2 bowls of cabbage. I only made her the deal in the first place because I know she doesn't like wasting food. So.. to ensure that the girlfriend is happy, I ate them cabbage. AND! in case you people don't already know (and I'm not referring to only the black people. Woosh.~ okay that was uncalled for. Haha. I think.. only a small amount of people will actually get this?) I dislike eating vegetables. I don't eat them greens. I have a theory : Whatever's healthy, isn't tasty. And vice versa. Love, don't be sorry don't feel bad. :) I was completely willing to eat them, as long as you go home smiling at the end of the day :) You looked adorable when you cooked the Calamari btw. Haha. (oh yes yes. Lunch was with her best friend and also a classmate. where are my manners? Haha. Woosh.~ Apparently they were sympathetic of me, looking at me eat the bowls of vege.)

Lunch ended and we went for pool by the bowling alley, and my girlfriend continues to amaze me. :) She's no dead weight in a team-match. :p unlike her guy friends. HAHA. Okay okay.. It was fun. I'm amazed by my girlfriend. Hmm.. [oh before I forget.. I guess it's (almost almost almost) safe to say that I've rediscovered my touch a little so like.. BRING IT BITCHES! This obviously directed to my friends. Lol. A little practice and I should be back to normal. The top.~ HAHA. Oh they must be swearing their pants off right now.] The day ended there for the group, and I got to have some time alone with my girlfriend. ;D

Let's just say.. the day turned out to be perfect. What with dinner and all. I listed 4 places for her to choose from to have dinner. (considering that she wasn't allowed to leave OU and head to curve with me. Otherwise Tony Roma's would be in the list as well.. and other choices of course.)

Chili's.
Dave's.
T.G.I.F.
Jack's Place.

Chili's was her original choice, but we were in a hurry and there was a waiting line. So we had to settle for somewhere else. Hence she chose T.G.I.F. She was supposed to be home by 8, but we stayed out till 9. The best part was.. her mother didn't say anything. ;D And it was her first time staying out till 9 with friends. I continue to wonder why things seem to be going our way.

My girlfriend further amazes me with the way she eats. Oh love, you truly are different aren't you? :) It was a great day, and I ended it with a birthday song at midnight. To come think of it, I've never personally sang a birthday song to anoyone. It'll be our little tradition alright? Just between you, and I. :)

If this year's celebration isn't already your best birthday celebration ever,
every year I'll be trying.
This is the best of me,
and only you are getting it.

Lay low. Bury everything.

We'll each take half.

2009-09-21T15:53:00.002+08:00

'Chi Lang Chi Puah'

Lol. That is how you say "we'll each take half" in Hokkien. Hmm, so it appears that my girlfriend on a totally random day came up with this totally random idea of having string bracelets. It's a nice idea. ;D The other day, she tied strings on my right wrist. 3 strings, Purple, Black, and.. Pink? Anyway.. Yeah, then I asked her "won't you have one as well?" and she said "yeah, i will." I asked her on which hand does she want to have them, she told me to decide and within seconds I decided on her left. That way when we hold hands, we'll both have our string bracelets on our wrists.

It never fails to remind me of you.

Oh oh! It's my girlfriend's birthday in 6 days! ;D To those who are a little slow with their numbers, it means her birthday is on the 27th. ;D Babe, things have been going our way thus far and I know you see it too. Tell me we aren't lucky, tell me we aren't being blessed by the Gods above. You can't can you? :) On your birthday, things will go our way as well >=] I'll see to it that it does. I will make you happy.

A little random-ness can make people happy.
Thank you, EmiLy. :)

I've waited 19 years for you.
I love you.

What goes around comes around.

2009-09-16T02:13:00.003+08:00

Before I begin, I'm sorry to only two people. Firstly, the one who is most important to me, my girlfriend. The other person, is of course Lee Lin Yi. I'm apologizing because of the things I'll say in this post. Ugly things. Consisting of a lot of F words. Somehow.. I feel that Lin Yi would be the one most disappointed with me.. (my girlfriend will accept me for who I am, so yeah.. I think I'll be fine. Won't I, Love? >_< you are asleep, I hope you are sleeping well. I miss you, so so much. More than you know ;D and of course, I love you.) so yeah.. forgive me Lin Yi? :z it's just.. I'm sick of all the bullshit.

I've had enough. You're disgusting. I'm even going to say your name, so that everyone reading my blog would know. Cause really, I couldn't care less. chin lee shan, get a life.

Tonight I've decided to erase you completely, I've removed you from MSN and my phonebook. I've seriously had enough of your shit and I'd rather you leave me be. It's starting to disgust me. I was thinking to myself, as to whether or not I should tell you off. And I thought, "heh.. why waste time, just let her do whatever she wants." A small part of me told myself, it's alright Lexandl, you're not here to hurt anyone. Don't say hurtful things. But tonight, all that changes. Fuck you. Seriously, fuck you, and fuck off. ;D

No I haven't been reading your blog, nor have I bothered to give a shit about you. Because I'm tired of all the shit you've put me through. But I was told to read this one post on your blog, and so I did. It was the one where you let out everything over the past months, of course.. relating to me. The same person who told me to read your blog, also told me that you editted your blog post the minute I changed my 'style'. (yes, I'm protecting this person. Keeping him/her away from your shit. for all you know, it just might someone dear to you. Ohh this is sooo killing you.) Do you remember what YOU did? It's not that I changed all my you's/yours's/etc etc from italized to coloured because of YOUR blog post, I changed even before I read your pathetic little post ranting about me. This same person has both copies of your post, the uneditted one and the editted one. So.. you're actually THAT fucking lifeless as to edit your blog to make it SEEM like you're the one who has made the changes? Hahaha. If pathetic is like here *holds out hand at the lowest possible height* you are HERE *uses the hand of another individual's and places it even lower than my own hand* that's just how pathetic you are.

And I'm sure you've probably complained to your friends about me, I'm not surprised if you've got them going "Yeah lorh, bad guy la he" or whatever the fuck really. Cause it's not like they know the whole story. So you do things like message me about random things like your sister going to Scotland and the lake there and shit. What am i supposed to feel? Moved? Touched? Not by your messages I won't. pft. -_- You say things like "I'm not giving up on this friendship" hahaha, and for what? I've given up on it a LOOOOOOOOOOONG time ago. So yeah, just.. give it a rest?

What exactly do you want me to do? Sit still and STILL take all your shit even though I couldn't care less about you? The fuck I will, to hell with you. The fuck I care if this post will hurt you, you STILL give me shit like as if I'm supposed to care about you, like as if I STILL care about you, *rolling on the floor laughing my FUCKING flat white ass off* the fuck I care if you get hurt and pull yet another one of your sleepless nights, the fuck i care. Go ahead, you're just wasting your time.

Through every separation, there's a loser and a winner. I learned this from the tv series, How I Met Your Mother (oh dear readers, if somehow.. you're STILL reading this, it's a great tv series. Lexandl-approved ;D and.. wow you're still reading. Haha.). And yes, through every separation, there's a loser and a winner. It's obvious who's the fucking loser here, no? ;D Oh I know the type of person you are, you're vengeful. So you'll most probably launch a counter-attack at me through your blog, or somehow. But yeah, know that I won't read it :)

"fucking reply whether I can collect my books or not or you will regret it I tell you. I guaratee you." It's up to you really, whatever you intend to do. Do you want my honest opinion on you? Yes, your attitude really is hateful. You have to change. You'll make me regret, you'll make sure my life will be what, a living hell? You're going to what, get your boyfriend and his friends to whack me up? You're going to what, puncture the tyres of the cars in front of my house? Go ahead, but I seriously hope you don't do anything. Otherwise, they'll just be more signs that you are indeed, absolutely, irrevocably, unequivocally, someone who needs help.

Ieka said "Don't bother talking to people like that, I know how it feels. I learned the hard way.", she and I know better than to bother talking to people who give you shit. With these last words of mine I hope you'll change. Aside from actually carrying your books along with me when I do go to Marks & Spencer, this blog post will be like my last ever time-wasting-on-you activity I'll bother myself with. After I'm done with the books, leave me alone. For all the things we've been through, will you at least give me this much? It's just the way I am.

"stay perfect" you said so, no? If I'm so perfect, then this is me.. being perfect. I'm not one who talks to people whom I've come to an agreement that we'd go our separate ways.

Life with the girlfriend.

2009-09-14T12:16:00.004+08:00

This is really really good. ;D Go search for more of his videos.

Yeah yeah, the 'fun' is all in this video. This post is about to turn into one about my life with MY girlfriend again. Xixi xixi~ Anyway, yes guys.. stop reading. You know you guys don't want to. ._.

With her.

First sight.
I like this drawing of me. I look cool. lol :p
Thanks love, you are awesome :)

Well, in case any of you are wondering, my relationship is going really well. I'm happy with where I am today, I'm happy with her, I'm happy because of her. ;D One of the reasons why life is great. Haha. So like.. I woke up the other day at 8AM, and came up with this..

I love but one, I love but you,
Forever and a day, plus eternity,
Live a life with me, one that's new,
Stay by my side, through all calamity. :)

Your perception of love blurry,
Baby don't worry, I'll be clarity,
Your vision now cleared,
For I'm a guy not ordinary.

Taken by surprise, baby make not a sound,
Taken by surprise, my baby fell,
Worried over nothing, for I'm standing my ground,
Arms at ready, protecting my all.. from Heaven and Hell.

I was still in bed, I don't know how I pulled this one off. Woosh. I'm glad you like it. ;D Due to the fact that my girlfriend is still a high-schooler, doing her final year, we don't get to go out much. However, I do get to see her on weekends though. I'd drop by and we'd just talk outside her house, by the gate. It's fun.~ ;D Her father would always say that it's unsafe, so we'd move in to the porch, and then one day.. a shocking turn of events occurred. Her mother actually said "come and sit inside." It was considerably late, but I was invited in. Which really.. makes me happy. For one, not only that she has never been out of the house (after 8) much, but recently she has and her parents don't seem to mind (much. lol) and also because I'm actually allowed into the house so late? but yeah anyway.. it's just.. why is it that I'm allowed into the house so late? It's not helping with my 'arrogance'. Wahaha. Oh well, I hope things will go just fine for us. It has been, and it is. :) For some reason, we seem to get our way everytime.

Could the Gods be giving us their blessings? (:

Poem by the girlfriend.

Lexandl, truly more than love personified,
Someone whom I'm proud to have by my side,
Unchained by misfortune all laws abide,
All that's good, in us, reside.

Shadows of the past stubbornly remain,
In form of ghosts they stay and maintain,
Shrinking away as lights flood in,
Worry not the insignificance of what could've been.

Our lives start now, our gift of time,
It is for our present that I conceive this rhyme,
Together we stand, You and I,
As we bid our ghosts, farewell, goodbye.

A classmate of hers actually took this paper away from her and read everything and misinterpreted it as a break up letter. -___- When asked if why does he think it's a break up letter, he said "there.. farewell, goodbye lor.~". Lol. What class are you in omg?! :p HAHA. I love you, EmiLy. :)

In case all of you don't already know, my girlfriend and I are somewhat.. synchronized. In sync. Occasionally, we'd say/do the same thing in response to something at the same time. Be it around others or alone by ourselves. It happens quite frequently really. Lol.

Thank you again for the postcard and everything else you posted to me in that envelope. I love you, and babe, I'm missing you oh so much :)

Ieka said "yeah.. don't bother talking to people like that. they're just a waste of your time." while smiling away. Haha, she's cool. ;D We should hang out more.

For us, the odds are not against us,
they're with us.
I love you.

The Information.

2009-09-09T22:13:00.002+08:00

TV series downloaders, heads up!

Gossip Girl - Returns 13th September 2009. (American date, hence meaning we'll only be able to download on the 14th.)
House - Returns 20th September 2009.
How I Met Your Mother - Returns 20th September 2009.
One Tree Hill - Returns 13th September.
Smallville - Returns 10th September.
Supernatural - Returns 9th September.
The Big Bang Theory - Returns 20th September.

Useful information. At least my readers won't get bored of me just yet. Haha.

Happy First Month. ;D

2009-08-29T12:03:00.005+08:00

Happy One Month.

Where we are now.

Love, the things I want to do with you.. they're countless. The kisses I want to give you.. they're limitless. I was rather happy on that first Tuesday we went out. :) I had fun with you even though I was ~~allegedly~~ supposedly really quiet. Look just how much things have changed huh? :) We're awesome, YOU are, my love :) I've never met a girl like you and honey, I'm really glad I've found you. Just when I had lost all hope in waiting for you to show up again, waiting for you to come online, you showed up. :) Babe, I love you and I'm never leaving you. "This is the one girl I'm never going to make cry." and with that said to myself, I promise you I will never hurt you, I promise I will not make you shed another tear of sadness, I promise you will be loved by me, I promise I'll be forever faithful. These I promise you :) I love you, only EmiLy. MY EmiLy.

That Tuesday.
Did I not say that I would cheer you up? :)

Babe, I will never take you for granted. I promise you that too. Although I know that you love me and that you care for me, but I'll give you the best of care, the best of affection, the best attention, regardless of how long we've been together. :) and just like how I don't know what exactly is going on on your side of the world without me, and I never will, but I'm sure you know what's best for yourself. :) So you'd better take care care care okay? :) and.. You most probably won't know the things for you, but I'm hoping one day you will :) although it's almost impossible unless i tell you. I love you EmiLy, and I hope that I'm the only one you can be happy with :) because you are the only one I can be happy with. I want you. :)

That Sunday.
The day I started to think you are sexy.
Lol.

I want you. I want you. There will probably be hardships down the line, but it is as you said. We'll take on whatever challenges thrown towards us. I like the fact that I'm the only one you are comfortable with calling 'babe' (bay-be). It makes me feel special. (leaves out a few things here. lol, better that way right?) ~~As macho as I am~~ As much as I go on about being macho is important and stuff, with you I seem to not care whether or not I am. (>_>)

That Saturday.
You haven't tried Chocolate Brownies with Ice-Cream before?!
And I brought you,
And I, fulfilled your life since that day. In more ways than one. :)

I'm not the type of guy with the bad-boy-I-don't-give-a-shit front which some girls find rather attractive. I'm not a guy who finds it embarrassing to parade the happiness I feel when I'm with you. I'm this, a soft side resides in everyone, the type of guy who doesn't hide it. Although there may have been other girls whom I've been sweet to, like you said, but with you I'm happier than with whichever person I've ever been with. :) I'm yours, and with you my guard Isn't up. Around you, there's no reason for it to be. I love you, and I'm giving you my all. My guard is down because I trust you, my guard is down because I love you, my guard is down because I am yours and you are free to do as you wish :) my guard is down because I'm giving you, me. I'm offering you everything I have, I love you. Take me, EmiLy. Take me whole. :)

Where we are today.
Happy First Month. :)
Thank you for everything thus far. :)
Everything.

And so maybe we only got to spend our first month anniversary together by sitting in the front porch of your house, but we had fun. We're still happy, and neither of us are complaining. :) (right?!) Everything's great, I love you and I will see you on Monday. :)

I was late for work today because I was trying to finish this up. Only managed to finish it up after work. Ugh, anyway.. Babe I love you. :) I hope your Saturday wasn't all that bad.

"have you tried Ice-Cream with rice?"
Forever and a day plus eternity, love :)

20:07

2009-08-23T20:07:00.003+08:00

20:07 - The time after returning home from spending approximately 12 hours and 25 minutes with my girlfriend, her buddy, and her family. (after sitting down, and taking my towel and getting a glass of cold water also.)

07:10 - What worse impression to leave your girlfriend's father than waking up late for a morning of cycling? I managed to wake up at 4 something in the morning just because someone switched off the lights, but I couldn't wake up to 10 of my girlfriend's calls. Can you imagine? So I rushed, brushed my teeth and packed my extra clothes, changed, and left. Didn't even bother drinking water, which really got to me even before I got on the bike. Throat was so dry. Okay, I'm sure people would like to know if her father was angry at me or something. According to her (my girlfriend) he was, but he sure seemed happy enough to wish me good morning. >_< my girlfriend forced herself to cycle up the relatively steep hill due to some reason. It was because of that particular reason, I got left behind, and I was rather worried on how she was doing at that time. Hence, regardless of the fact that even though I paddled like crazy it still felt like I was paddling on air and not moving much, I still paddled and paddled to make sure I got to her. Right when I thought I was gaining the momentum, my legs failed me. I got so tired, that when I got off to push the bike I couldn't feel my legs and almost fell. Lol. Then we just sat down by the side of the hill and once we thought that we rested enough we went back down. I'm sorry love, if it wasn't for me you could've cycled down. Which apparently is the 'reward' for actually cycling up the hill. I love you.

Oh, I probably violated every single speed limit for each and every road I was on and ran every possible red light. Toretto. ;D Toretto is the characted played by Vin Diesel in Fast and the Furious, to those who don't know. To those who don't know Vin Diesel, namely.. :p should probably Google Image Dom Toretto. Haha. Anyway, it's just this actor that some guys might find hot. But really, it's self-preference. Haha, joe chilling~ lol.

08:45 - (At least I think it was 08:45) Breakfast with the girlfriend. . . and the girlfriend's father, the girlfriend's younger brother and the girlfriend's buddy. I was still worried that her father was angry at me. Haha, but yeah.. everything turned out fine. I had Iced Milo, while everyone else had something to eat. Hmm.

10:30 - Reached the girlfriend's house after pushing our bikes back from the mamak, and we rested. Rested till.. God knows when, and taught my girlfriend Modern Maths, Matrices. ;D Although a student like her could probably figure it out by herself if she REALLY tried, but yeah.. I took the initiative to help out. Besides, I'm currently working in One Utama and considering how I'm just too damned broke to eat anything I spend my break time in Popular bookstore revising Matrices. Babe, I'm sure you are very much capable of answering all your matrices questions from now on. Naturally smart girlfriend, aish. I'm more than proud to have you as my girlfriend. ;D Where do I even begin, I'm so lucky. ;D Thank you for preparing me instant noodles for lunch, although I would've been just fine not eating anything. The feeling has kinda been a norm ever since I started working in Marks & Spencer.

06:15 - (I think) Left the girlfriend's house to drop her brother off for roller blading lessons, while I spend time with my awesome girlfriend in Kiara Park holding her hand while jogging, not holding her hand while running by her side trying to maintain a slow enough pace so she can keep up. Lol. Our conversations were somewhat like this because I was out of breath..

Me : So like *pants* how fast can you *pants* go?
EmiLy : Urm.. I probably could go really fast, but considering how you're so out of breath, I'm slowing my pace for you.

Me : You can go *pants* all out if *pants* you want to *pants* because I *pants* am just jogging *pants* like how I'd *pants* walk in the *pants* real world.
EmiLy : Oh really now? Walk then, walk.
Me : This IS *pants* me walking.

Me : My pants are *pants* falling.
EmiLy : Let go of my hand and pull your pants up. I wouldn't want to be walking next to a pants-less guy in the park.
Me : oh?
EmiLy : What? Would YOU want to walk next to a pants-less guy in the park?
Me : No. Not with *pants* a pant *pants* a pant.. *PANTS* (couldn't catch my breath so I had a really hard time pronouncing pantSless) pants-less GUY. I'd run next *pants* to a pantsless *pants* girl though. *pants* If the girl *pants* was you.
EmiLy : Yeah, but what if I was jogging with you and suddenly my pants fell off and it gets stuck at my lower legs? Would you still want to be next to me?
Me : Then I'd *pants* stop you, *pants* and pull your *pants* pants up for you. Obviously.
EmiLy : Well, that's because you're my wonderful boyfriend.
Me : If you knew *pants* that I was *pants* your wonderful *pants* boyfriend, you *pants* wouldn't have *pants* even asked me *pants* if I'd still *pants* run next to *pants* you.

Oh, and I'm like really glad your father actually trusted enough me to drive both his children to the park. ;D The monkey bars were fun babe! HAHA. I'm sorry I wasn't being too supportive. But by you making fun of me panting while jogging and running next to you, is exactly why I know it's okay to not be too supportive when it was your turn on the monkey bar. Oops :p But but, isn't this exactly why you love me? Because we have fun in our own way, and love, it's really nice. :) I like it like that. Even if it means you making fun of me. Lol.

07:15 - (I think) Picked up girlfriend's brother and after dropping them off and saying bye to their mother, I left for home. It was a great day, I really had fun. And thank you, love, for everything. :) It wouldn't have been the way it was without you.

Here are the reasons why I showed up today even though I was late and supposedly because it's too much trouble. (says you) We were supposed to exchange reasons right? But time didn't allow.

Even though I was late, I did eventually wake up. (we only got this far, until we ran out of time.)
Because you're my girlfriend.
Because I love you. And only you.
Because I'd take every chance that I can get to spend time with you.
Because you needed my help for matrices.
Because I miss you.
Because I know that even though I'd have to do something I'm not good at (cycling) I'd still be able to have fun with you.
Because I enjoy being in your company.
Because you make me happy, the way nobody else does.

I know you probably only have like 5 reasons, so yeah.. you lost. Just like how you lost rock paper scissors a week ago. If you want to tell your untold half of the story, like how you won rock paper scissors today because you CHEATED, you could.. I don't know. :p

I love you, EmiLy. In more ways than a million. :)

About a month or two back, you said
"EmiLy is wondering why LexxiE does the things he does."
after singing you a song on the phone, I also left my DotA game unattended,
and after exchanging a few sentences I said
It's because I have feelings for you, it's because you make me happy.

I love you.
Despite the fact that love is something which can't be seen,
can you see my love for you?

The job.

2009-08-18T00:41:00.003+08:00

Marks and Spencer's pay is shit. ;D I found out the hard way, but I shan't allow such mishap befall my readers! So I'm telling you that the pay is shit, tell your friends, tell your family. And tell them to tell their friends and family! I'm about to be interviewed by someone at 9 in the morning later, for a job at a call centre new my house. I hope I get it, because I heard their pay is good. It's like.. you-can-eat-Carls Jr-everyday-as-your-lunch good!

So yeah, a couple of stuff happened at work. From sharing stories about busting couples getting sexy in fitting rooms and cinema theatres (work experience :z believe it! people actually do stuff in these places.) to promoting PJ's best nasi lemak to everyday conversations. There's got to be something about the staff at Marks and Spencer and the line 'have you gone for your break?'. Everyday, everyone will ask 'sudah break? :)' 'sudah break? :)' and after answering, it ends there. Anyway, here's something that happened at work.

*Man steps out of the fitting room as I was folding clothes nearby the fitting room*

Man : Hey, I need a second opinion.
Me : Urm.. Okay.
Man : What do you think?
Me : It looks.. okay. It's quite good, it's nice la. *nods*
Man : Okay.. Wait here.

*Man steps out after a while as he was changing into another shirt*

Man : What do you think?
Me : Urm..
Man : You can be honest.
Me : Urm..
Man : No, go ahead. Just say it. What? I look fat in this is it?
Me : No.. ~~Well sir, I can see your boobs.~~ It's not that nice.. there's something wrong with the colour. (which btw, is the truth!)
Man : So, it's just the colour?
Me : ~~Sir.. your boobs~~ Yeah, it just doesn't come off right. It's too bright. (he was in a cyan polo T btw)
Man : Alright, thanks. I'll just take the other one then.
Me : No problem sir.

Supervisor : You are.. Hui Yi's friend?
Me : Huh?
Supervisor : The other part-timer, the chinese girl.
Me : Oh, urm.. no. I don't know her.
Supervisor : Do you want to get to know her? She's pretty.
Me : Urm.. No thanks. I have a girlfriend.
Supervisor : But she's pretty.
Me : My girlfriend is pretty too.
Supervisor : You sure? She's pretty.
Me : My girlfriend is prettier, confirmed. *walks off*

So maybe it's true.. I think I'm all high and mighty just because I'm your boyfriend. Can you blame me really? Just got off the phone with you, so worth going broke on credit. :) I love you. I'd record our phone calls and listen to each of them if I could. It'd definitely make me smile :)

Oh, OH!! Every Friday, Assistant General Manager will visit our store and LOOK for mistakes. Anyway, there was this one woman with her and she welcomed me to Marks and Spencel. This is not a typo, she did say it.

Woman : Eh? Hi. You're new here?
Me : Hi.. Yeah.
Woman : Oh okay. Welcome to Marks and SpenceL. :)
Me : Thank you. *silent laughter*

AND OMG, I CAN'T STAND IT ANYMORE. I'M GOING TO DO IT! (it's a habit, I've been correcting my girlfriend typos by making fun of her. I never let her off. lol. It's not like she lets me off -__-)

Look! LOOK! Underneath the picture on the screenshot above, there's a tag saying 'Aunt Corina's daughter (with guitar) and
the other 2 are my UK couzies. hee~'. WHERE IS THE GUITAR?! LOL! Oh wait, yeah.. it's that brown wooden thing with strings that's being played by that girl in red. Yeah, she's certainly holding it like it's a guitar. And my oh my, the guitar pick in her hand is just one of a kind! OMG! Sorry Chun Lim, I already told you your latest post had so many typos. You said you've corrected them, and I wanted something to laugh at and I thought maybe you wouldn't have realized the guitar typo (clearly you didn't, even after reading the entire post.) and I just couldn't help it. It's okay, it's okay. A few more posts like these on my World Wide Web blog, and the whole world will know you! Seriously, quote Acktugalakalachikamatukon. Plus, I'm pretty sure you've come across one of those mass forwarded E-Mails where they say something like 'if you can make someone smile, won't you' and stuff like that. I suppose you wouldn't mind having a few people smiling cause of you right? If YOU can make someone smile, won't you? ;D

Yes, I seriously don't let a chance to say 'my girlfriend etc etc' slip.
I'm more than proud to have you, and I shall parade you to the world.
My actions are but a charade of my love for you.
I. Love. You.

The beloved.

2009-08-17T19:58:00.003+08:00

I did say I would come up with a poem for you. So.. yeah. Here you go :)

Away away on our 72-hours getaway,
Baby girl, I love you and I will not stray.
To a place without restrictions,
Love, your kisses, my addictions~
To a place where we need not be secretive,
I love you and I hope to never be insensitive.

Everyday I miss you,
Given the chance, everyday I'll kiss you,
Everyday I love you,
After exams, journey with me somewhere new.
Everyday I need you,
Take me to Japan, and together we'll see the view.

I love you, and if you asked me why.. I know exactly where to begin. :) and I suppose, only you would fully understand the poem above ;D

A game, messages, and special deliveries,
our friendship built upon,
Love, trust and forgiveness,
our relationship built on.

Like an Iris,
over time my feelings for you blossomed,
Like Gazette's Cassis,
hearing your voice is so awesome.

Forgive my ignorance for being repetitive,
I'm sorry, from lexandl to GoD|^WaRs.Eve.

I didn't think I'd hear you say that you want to be the one for me. You make me happy, and I love you.. I know just how lucky I am to have you. :) I won't take you for granted.

I too want to be the one for you.

I'm yours. Only. Yours.

Flaunting.

2009-08-09T15:10:00.002+08:00

Breaking dawn cloudy mornings,
Insatiable addictions undeniable yearnings;
Love you for all that you are,
Love us for what we have and are..
I love you.

Do YOU have someone special in your life? :) Is that someone special going the extra mile to show you just how much he/her loves you? I'm glad they are, BUT does he/her leaves sends you poems in the wee hours of the morning like mine does? ;D a-hahahaha. Okay, I do feel like a cocky bastard. Woosh~ After all, someone did say that I am. Oh well.. :D Aish, so it appears that my girlfriend is someone whose English level tremendously surpasses mine. She uses words I don't know the meaning to. Woosh~ and here I am admitting it on my world wide web blog. Because, the whole world reads my blog, right Acktugalakalachikamatukon? ;D

I love you, Emily.

Look around, can you see?
Everything, you here with me;
We preservered and now here we are,
Look behind we've come so far.
Look ahead.. Our future.
You're mine. (:
I love you.

I'm yours and I will remain yours. Provided that I don't become fat. Yes. Haha. Hao (fir3f0xxx) said that he hopes to see us together still in a year's time, maybe even more. It's gotten me to come to thinking. Where exactly will we be? I don't want you to leave me. Ever. I liked the second line, for some reason. (No love, there isn't an obvious reason so don't try to figure out an obvious reason. lol. I miss you.)

In blissful dark when all else slumbers,
Quietly quietly I dial your number;
After hours after games,
So passionately our love flames!

Elegance with all its splendor,
With my head upon your shoulder,
You whisper with a tone so sweet,
In perfect harmony our lips meet.

Exactly how amazing is she? I'm living the life. ;D My dear, I hope you know that nobody can love you like I can :) and in the days (and the years, hopefully) to come, I will love you in the exact same way that made you fall for me, if not, better. I just had a short flashback of Malam Bakat (an event held by her school) and I miss you.

Embrace me close I offer no resistance,
Surround me in thy heavenly essence,
Protect me from ignorant malevolence,
Thus our love, surpassing all evanescence.

May the winged seraphs above sigh in envy,
That even demons below succumb to jealousy;
I belong to you and you belong to me,
Forever and a day plus eternity..

This one is my favourite. It's the Tiger Woods of golf. The Adam Sandler of comedy. The Michael Jordan of basketball. The lexandl of DotA. It's just.. amazing how you do the things you do. I'm going.. to try and come up with my own poem for you here okay? lol. I have to at least try to keep up with my girlfriend's prowess.

My girlfriend is filthy rich. What am I to do?

To Emily :

Okay I've tried and I've failed. LOL. Expect one from me soon though. I will succeed. I love you, I'm leaving my house soon once I've showered (16:29 now) and.. I'll be at the field in front of your house to hobo around ;D

To think that I actually intended to blog about some stuff from work..
I wonder what happened here.
Oh well, next post la ;D

Her hands fit mine perfectly. Litreally.

2009-07-29T11:26:00.004+08:00

My WORLD WIDE WEB entry for my girlfriend. ;D (world wide web - an inside joke)

It's like you said, back then, dare we say we would be where we are today?

Hmm. Esther said you suit me. Soup said we make such a cute couple. Do you know what I really want? 10 years down the line, I want people to say we're the perfect couple. Just because we are. :) It's like the title of this post, your hands fit mine perfectly. Someone clearly intended for that to happen, our hands to fit perfectly that is. Probably He who sets the natural orders in life. Natural orders like, guys should get the bill everytime. Mmhmm, natural order.

When I wasn't your boyfriend, and your friends were already referring to me as your boyfriend, that really made me happy. It's all I want to be, your boyfriend, yours. Only yours. Love, I'm sorry. I haven't blogged in a while and it seems that I have writer's block. Ugh. Hmm, I was trying to imagine what you would say if you read this. You might jokingly say "oh sure, blame it on how long you haven't blogged why don't you." I seem to be able to hear your voice when it comes to the "why don't you." and it's making me miss you more.

I like the way you talk/speak/type. All of it. Well, we did start out talking by typing anyway. So yeah, let's go with typing. Up to this very day, I still don't know what took me so long to actually add you up into my buddy list. You were always always there back in those days. I guess, I just didn't want to be one of those guys who just add you up before even talking to you. I didn't want to be the okay-now-that-you're-in-my-list-let's-be-friends guy. I guess I wanted to get to know you a little bit first. I've always enjoyed talking to you, because.. you know why. Lol, I don't suppose you would want me to say it here to everyone do you? :p It makes me smile, thinking of everything we talked about back then. Don't ever change love. Don't. :) Then there's the way you react to whatever I say. I still think they're 'priceless reactions'. (Please get well soon. I know, it'll probably be days before you actually get the chance to read this.. but by then, I hope you will be fully recovered. Please do.) It's like.. sigh. I can't seem to find a word for it, because every one of them seem to be an understatement. Next on the list there's your voice, which really helps with getting me through the day. When I solve my money problem, I'm so going to call you frequently.

I'm starting.. to make.. no sense? I'm sorry love, the next time I blog about you I promise I will not allow writer's block to get the better of me. I miss you, I do. I will be forever faithful, I will be forever yours and I'll take you as you are. Whoever you were in the past, whatever mistakes you made. The mistakes you will make, whoever you will turn out to be in years to come, I'll take you as you are. After all, when I asked you to be with me, to be my girlfriend, I was already ready. :)

I will compromise to whatever your needs and wants.
I'm missing you, no surprise there.
July 28th - our story begins. :)

It's my favourite one of you.
Plus, I look less *word which you don't want me to say*.
I love you.

The XD.

2009-07-17T16:59:00.004+08:00

a.k.a RoflcopteRDowN

Where's my nasi lemak? T_T

The Naked Man.

2009-07-15T16:41:00.003+08:00

Okay.. So maybe my blog has been a little dead for quite a while. I've been busy. What's Lexandl busy with? Yeah, that's a good question. Someone would say "reaching 700 ____". (yes, purposely not making any sense to save my reputation.)

Look look, more screenshots.

Hmm, How I Met Your Mother is a really good tv series. It's funny. The Naked Man. Stupid la, my blog sucks now. Sigh-igh. I'm bored. Waiting for it to be 5 o'clock. Great things happen at 5.

Failed blog. Haha, okay. Stopping here.

yours.
always have been.
November, I await.

tired.

2009-07-04T17:52:00.001+08:00

it's not easy.
no, it definitely isn't.

5 years and counting.

2009-06-24T17:00:00.002+08:00

So I figured I needed to do something special for you, considering it's your birthday and all. Hmm, don't think I can call you this year. I'm kinda broke. Oh well, it's not like you call me also all the past years :p and then come up with random excuses! Anyway, Yes Lee Lin Yi. This one's for you. :)

I'm having writer's block. I can't seem to think of what to say. Ugh, moreover.. I don't think we've ever taken a picture together? Haha. 5 years of friendship and we never did have the time for a picture. Ah.. This is bad. I'm sorry if the post ends up being just shy of 'nice'. I'm having troubles.

Before I wish you happy birthday, I'd like to thank you. For everything. You were always always there. You were always looking out for me. Reminding what's right and what's wrong. I'm just sorry, if I ever let you down. (I'm thinking.. probably a lot of times? haha. my bad.)

We were talking the other day.. and you asked me if I could list out 10 things about you. I refused to do so on the spot, you said I was a coward. Yes, maybe I was trying to run away. Haha, but look what I managed to think of in less than 10 minutes :)

1. In 2004, you were a big fan of Tony Hawk.
2. Prefers Sunflowers over roses.
3. Finds Josh Duhamel hot. (or at least, you used to.)
4. Likes Wentworth's Miller's eyes.
5. Favourite cake is Tiramisu. (the original Tiramisu. forgot the ingredients)
6. Dislikes swearing and whoever swears in her presence, will be lectured.
7. Likes baking.
8. Buys only organic vegetables.
9. Likes drinking her killer combination drink - 4 tablespoons of Milo + cold Fresh Milk. Why is it called killer combination? Hmm.. probably because of the after-effect. :p
10. Has only been in one relationship.
11. Her ideal guy would have to be a religious Christian.
12. Her favourite Japanese food outlet is Sushi Zanmai. (okay i might get this wrong because I don't know the exact name of the place. but I can show you at One Utama >_<)

You asked for 10, but I can give 12. I can list out not ONLY 12 but.. the list can't go on and on and on :p

Need I go on? I have good memory! I've told you so. ;D Anyway, Lee Lin Yi, thank you for everything over the years. You've looked out for me probably more than my other friends have, and you've definitely changed me. Haha. You know what I'm talking about. I can imagine it. Someone like you making it big one day. Being all successful and more. When you're the head chef of a really expensive restaurant, don't you forget me. I'd like some free servings.

I know we often seem to drift apart, but we both know we've got each other's backs. You know I'm just a phone call away. I'm sorry I'm a little broke now, but I'll definitely definitely take you out for a meal one day alright? It's the promise of all promises. I feel as though, this post.. my words, are leading to nothing :/ So, I'm just going to end it here. I hope your day will be great. Just so you know, I actually had plans surprising you with a slice of Tiramisu cake at Traders Hotel. But Then there's the financial problem and the Tiramisu problem. I don't know the type you like. So, again.. I'm sorry. I'll make it up to you :) Happy birthday Lee Lin Yi, please do take care. :)

Oh and Adlan, happy birthday to you too. The end. haha.

Okay la, proper a bit la :p

Thanks for everything. Like helping me get 2 jobs? Haha. Sorry for leaving you with a bad impression on the 2nd job though. HAHA. You've been a super friend, sorry we ain't as close as we used to be. But we have fun when we catch up, dont we? ;D You're like a brother, but just one who doesn't buy me enough stuff. Take care.

I'd come for you.

2009-06-15T14:17:00.002+08:00

Okay, let's get to the point. Kye Min has been complaining that I haven't been blogging about him enough. So here goes..

I received a message from him today. lol.

"Baby i'm on my way home d. You home yet? Haha. Just give me a call when you are. Mwah."

So I replied "Sure darling"

Oh and uh darling, when you read this, let me know yeah? Mwah.

Alala, it happens to everyone Kye Min. Plus, I didn't even comment on your weird typing style in my chatbox. :p

I'm hopeless.

2009-06-14T10:10:00.001+08:00

Does the title not say it all?

Deja vu.

2009-06-13T09:43:00.005+08:00

Emo post. Don't read if you feel as though you've got better things to do.

So I tried going back to sleep, after only sleeping for 5 hours or so. However, I couldn't. I hate ~~making decisions~~ having to make the right decision. I didn't get out of bed to blog, no. I was planning to use a small sum of what money I have left and turn it into happiness. At least, that was what I told myself to do. I want to be jubilant. I want to be jubilant for this month is my birthday month, but why does that seem to be only a sad excuse and nothing more? What am I really doing? I'm here blogging, because I don't feel like telling anyone my problems. Anyone but Bubur Kia. (so if you're reading this, screw you for being offline the whole night yesterday) Why so? I don't know, maybe it's because he already knows half the story. No offence friends. Haha. Yes Derek, I know I can tell you my problems as well ._.
Yes, I did return for you. Yes, I would've left for you too, for us in fact. Eventually, I did.
I hate having to make the right decision. How can one know if one made the right decision without having gone through both situations first? One will never know a mistake is a mistake till it's made. What should I do? Won't you help me, won't you tell me what to do? I'm trying my best to be subtle, trying my best to put up a strong front. I don't want to seem weak. That's why I don't really make much sense sometimes, because I choose not to.
You said 4 words of which one I had to look up its meaning, and this is what happens. It changes everything.
I don't want to regret. However, I know I will. I mean, who likes making decisions which doesn't make them happy? It's okay, I should be proud of myself for doing so. I am, ~~most definitely~~ probably doing the right thing. Oh, screw the right thing. I wish, I hadn't gone through what I had over the past year. It has most definitely changed me. If I hadn't gone through what I did, I would most definitely not be doing this.

My determination to keep my blog free of the F word, is gone. Thus, fuck my life. Oh and did you hear? My 19th birthday wish will be to stop using the word 'fuck'. Lin, I want to be like you. What do you say when things go bad anyway? Haha, like that is going to work for me eh? But, I shall try. Hmm, maybe I should limit myself. 10 fucks a day sounds pretty reasonable. Haha, that sounded wrong. GAH! THIS ISN'T HOW MY LIFE IS SUPPOSED TO BE. FUCK EVERYTHING! I'm not happy..

Forgive the swearing. I shall now ask of your forgiveness in Japanese. Oyasu.. Never mind, that's good night in Japanese. It's 10:34 in the morning, I want to go for breakfast, but I know my friends are still sleeping. Every last one of em. Pigs.

Oh angel, won't you speak to me again?

Like the first time, and probably the rest,

won't you amaze me once more?

Please do, again and again.

Update.

2009-06-08T18:32:00.004+08:00

So I just got off the phone with a friend. He's coming over to my house, to use my toilet. Not even a "Hi friend! How have you been?!" (oh he's here now. brb.) and he says "hey man where are you? at home right? *waits for answer* okay I'm coming over to use your toilet. The lady eff-ed up my hair" (Obviously Lingesh used the actual F word, I censored it :D keeping my blog pg-13 still)

He even made me follow him into the toilet ._. Here's what happened.

*after a while of so called "damage control"*

Lingesh (not his real name. or is it..?) : this is not going into your blog right?
Lexandl : huh?
Lingesh : nobody needs to know I made a pit-stop for my hair.
Lexandl : No. Nobody needs to know. :) (I had already begun typing even before you reached my house. haha.)

So yeah, that's my day. Having a friend over so that he could do his hair for prom. Not only did I take him in and let him use my toilet, but I also offered him my Lacoste Essential. Safe to say you owe me PJ's finest Nasi Lemak? ;D Indeed you do. You sprayed like as if it was oil-bathing ritual on Thaipusam.

So, that's that. Let's talk about Scallops, and.. onions! They both have the same shape, and at every formal Chinese dinner. (wedding/chinese new year) I always tend to let the similarity in their shapes get the better of me. I'd always mistakenly take the onions thinking it's scallops. PUNIBAO! Yes yes, what's punibao? I have no idea. But it's a nice word to use and I don't know how I came up with it.

I got into a car hoping to get myself PJ's best nasi lemak for dinner, I entered the key into the ignition and tried starting the engine. The car isn't working. Then, I nearly walked into the glass door. FML. (FML = eff my life. Eh Zai, the site is funny wei. Haha.)

The next time I'm loaded, I'll get myself a..
1) LOT of t-shirts.
2) LOT of shirts.
3) jeans. 2 maybe.
4) razer mouse.
5) LOT of food. ;D
6) perfume.

moins.hauche.di.yo

I'm getting lazy.

2009-06-04T05:33:00.003+08:00

Okay, it's 5:33AM. I should really make this quick. If you don't want to read a post which is like most blogs which consists of posts about their daily life and stuff like that, just skip to the end. I have a joke which should be passed on. :D

I went for a wedding dinner the other day and I swear I saw a transexual there! He/she/it looked like a man, and he/she/it wore a blue dress. (AND NO! this isn't the same person in my 'lady in blue' post.) You can also see more of them at Lorong Haji Taib, and if you happen to go with Najee (the boy who cried because he lost at a game of BINGO) he would shout "WEI! WEI! WEI! NAMPAK KOTEK LA WEI!" at them from inside his car. Obviously, speeding off later. Who knows what would happen if you had the guts to just stay put after shouting THAT at them. Probably a scene from Resident Evil would take place. After all, it's their land. Anyway, about the wedding dinner. It was boring as hell. Clearly I wasn't meant to be there, because the people seated at the table I was seating at were my aunts and uncles. Plus, there was only a seat for me because my uncle's girlfriend wasn't feeling well. It was BORING as hell, and I never cursed the existance of latecomers more than I did on that day. Why? Because food can't be served unless all the guests have arrived, no? Damned latecomers.

Before I get harassed for not having pictures in my posts, I think I'd better add this one in. Brunette Taylor, hot right? I like. Beyond beautiful. She also looks good as Emo Taylor. I tried looking for a picture of her like that, but to no success I couldn't. So urm, if you really want to know how she looks like with the Emo look.. concentrate on 0:43.

I shall now continue about the wedding dinner. (yeah yeah, boo hoo. who wants to read about this.) I tried this fish, it's called Leopard Fish. I like it, because it doesn't really taste like fish. Haha. If it tasted like fish I'd probably find it.. normal. Fishy. :D And for the first time in years, my family actually took their share of dessert! (In case you don't already know.. for Chinese New Year dinners and wedding dinners, the dishes will come one after another. So it's like, you eat.. something and then vege, and then fish, and then prawns and so on, and finally dessert. so.. yeah) They each took one! :( The dessert is like.. possibly the best dish, not much of a dish.. but still. And there was one more left, I don't see what was the rush. But this one waiter came and asked "May I clear the table?" while there was one last dessert left on the plate, which I was getting ready to take, but one of my aunt said "Yes you may" and he took the plate away. I was like "uh." *you know how.. sometimes you want to say something to stop a person but you just can't seem to say anything because it all happened too quickly? yes, this took place* And so.. that's my story of 'The one that got away' :p Here's the worst part, the dessert was covered in peanuts. I'm a peanut lover .____.

Okay la, for boring some of my readers with something they really dont give two nuts about.. I shall make it up to you guys with a joke. A dirty one. I know I know, I may have said that I want to keep my blog PG-13 in 'Anirwan fun fact #367' (which I think is a really good post, haha) I guess I'll just have to make an exception. Here's the joke. I'd expect Mei to already know this one, because we both watch How I Met Your Mother.

What's the difference between peanut butter and jam?
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think!
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think dirty!
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You can't peanut butter your dick up someone's ass.

Hahahahaha. If you don't get it.. Hahaha, ask me. Acktugalakalachikamatukon can do better, he can show you! I actually wanted to cheer someone up with this joke, but.. that someone was in no mood to even reply me. Heh.. so yeah. I failed :z. I need something to do on Thursday! and damn it i took one hour! I'm sleepy. Bonne nuit :) Which means, good night in French. Yeah yeah, Miriam taught me. She's amazing, she's awesome, and she never fails to look good to me everytime I see her. :D I hope I don't cry when I bid her farewell in September ._. not macho laaaaaaaa

to you : all I can say is, finally! :)
to you : I shall know my place.
to you/you : stupid!
btw, you and you = one person. But I figured that this person wouldn't think it's him/her, so I used his/her favourite colours so that he/she will know that I'm calling him/her stupid! And no the red and orange isn't the other person's favorite colour. So it could be anybody :)

it's who I am.

2009-05-26T04:00:00.002+08:00

It's 4:03AM. I thought that my blog could use an update, and so here I am. I'm rather surprised that I didn't post much this month, considering how many posts I had after creating this blog (which by the way was the last week of April). I spent today (Monday) in a cyber cafe in SS2 playing DotA with my friends. Today's incident made me remember another incident. Which I think should be shared with on this 'world wide web' blog of mine (the world wide web thing is an inside joke).

Funny incidents occur on a daily basis. It happens anywhere, anytime. Today, something I find really funny occured in the cyber cafe I was in. So we were all playing dota (when you're playing dota you control ONE unit, this unit is your hero and it levels up and earns money based on its kills. A team of 5 heroes will go up against another 5. To make things short, to achieve your objective you kinda have to kill other heroes as well.) Chun Lim was going in for the kill, and there happen to be 2 enemy heroes in that area.

The dialogue.

Chun Lim : Kye Min, ready.
Kye Min : Okay. Wait.. Who you wanna aim?! Who you wanna aim?!

At least.. that was what Kye Min INTENDED to say. Here's what really happened.

Chun Lim : Kye Min, ready.
Kye Min : Okay. Wait.. HEY YA HEH HO?! HEY YA HEH HO?!
Lexandl : ....whaaaat are you saying wei? -_- who you wanna aim?

Oh~ it was a good laugh. You should be there to hear those exact words for yourself. It's a waste that you didn't. This incident made me remember of another which I forgot to bring up to someone earlier tonight. If you think it's you, yes it's you. Here's an obvious hint *note that I used the word 'forgot' and the words 'made me remember of another'. Meaning this person already got the story behind this incident - which I just finished describing - told, way before all of you reading my blog now.* Yes, I'm trying to hint you. I'm keeping your name hidden because maybe you don't want people to know. Trust me, it's not me not wanting people to know. I'm more than proud to have you as a friend, I'd even shout your name out loud should the both of us happen to be in a room filled with really important people having a really important meeting, just so people in that room will know that I'm your friend.

Lexandl : eh Chun Lim, how did you come up with the name hot-rod? (when you play DotA, people usually use nicknames.) oh yeah, I forgot. KFC.
Chun Lim : no la.. it's one of Alienware's models. (go google alienware if you don't know what alienware is)
Kye Min : it's not hot-rod, it's ho-trod.
Kye Min : *does a really stupid voice* hehehe, ho-trod ho-trod.

Chun Lim for some reason found this funny and reacted thus so..

Chun Lim : Hahaha, no la. *laughs laughs laughs laughs SNORTS*

Kye Min and I (I'm not sure if Anirwan was there) both stoned in shock. Hahaha, it was really really funny. In the end, Kye Min and I snorted at everything and anything either one of us said.

There's another incident which I find really funny, but unless you can imagine Anirwan speaking chinese.. I don't think it's worth mentioning. My post is already so long, I do not want my dear readers to read something which would be out of their imagination. Okay so maybe you can't imagine Chun Lim snorting, but at least you know what a snort is right? It's the sound that pigs make in those classic cartoons like Looney Toons.

There's someone I want to read my blog, but I don't know when will that be possible. So if you are reading this, I'm talking about you okay? Although.. I don't think I needed to say that. Someone like you would probably already think that it's you. Hahaha, because EVERYTHING is about you right? ;) I'm wishing that you come online soon. I want you to read my blog because.. I think it's the only way you can get to know me, one humble person out of supposedly 'millions', a little better.

Before I end my post, I'd like to share a message someone sent to me today while I was having lunch. Some of you might not get it, and I'm sorry but I'm not going to explain it for you. But it's good, hahaha.

Situation is like this :- I asked a few guys to go DotA with me, one of them said he might not be able to go out because the day before he just got scolding from his father. During lunch, I received a message saying..

"cannot come la my mum screwing around" <-- hehe. I'm not sure if you're thinking what I'm thinking when I first heard this, but.. hahaha if whatever you're thinking of is making you laugh, stick to that. :)

By the way, the only thing 24-hour about the mamak opposite my house is the sign which says 24 hours. I've been hungry the past two nights but I didn't have anything to eat at home. The first night, I bought a loaf of bread from 7-11, which was finished by the 2nd night (and I only ate 2 slices). The 2nd night, I had nothing to eat. Please oh please let there be a 24-hours mamak in front of my house which cook isn't too generous on the salt when it comes to cooking 2 packets of maggi goreng.

Bottom right corner of the post is always my emo section :)
you make me smile, ~~more than you know~~ in more ways than you know.

If you ask me what I ate for lunch, I'll say biscuit.
If you ask me whether biscuit is enough for me, I'll say

Quote Esther : "I had TIGER biscuits. Mana tak cukup?"

Because it's 5:51a.m, and I can't sleep.

2009-05-20T05:51:00.010+08:00

When I first saw this picture,
I was amazed,
You look really good in this one,
You were beautiful,
You still are,
And you will always be.

Hi mom. I know you'll read this sooner or later. You might even be reading it now, every word I have, every word I know, they're for you.

Yes, come November and it'll be 13 years since that day. (plus minus) Yes, I'm a little sensitive whenever someone mentions about you. Yes, I don't like them talking about you. I really, really dislike it.

I slept at 2, only to wake up at 4 due to nothing. The cold perhaps. Since then, I couldn't go back to sleep. Since then, my mind started to wander. It collided straight into the rather penetrable shield which I've placed around my memories of you, and shattered it. I miss you mom. :'( I didn't really get to know you, oh what I wouldn't give just to have a day with you as the person I am today, as the son you see today.

I find myself.. stupid. For not being able to grasp that you were dying. It was months that you were always resting on the very same wooden sofa we have in our living room up till today. (not much of a sofa, but I don't know what to call it) I may not remember exactly how long, but it was.. hours? probably days that you were lying in the hospital bed. I didn't know that you were going to leave. Let me tell you what I can remember mom. The day you left, Lester and I were there at the hospital with a few other people from church, all of them your friends of course. I don't even remember dad being around, neither was Louis. It was either Aunt Mary or the other chinese Aunt which told me to wake you up, without questioning, I did, and you woke up. It was then they said, okay, you can go now. Lester and I sat on the chairs outside the room which you were in. Eventually, they called for me again. They asked of me, the same thing they had asked of me earlier that day. To wake you up, and I did. This time you didn't open your eyes. That was when they told me you were dead. Until the very last moment, I did not think you were dying. Until the very last moment, I did not think it would happen. I did not know what was going on. Did I not deserve to know? Was it because you didn't want me to worry? Was it because you didn't want me to be upset? I don't recall saying that I love you, no I don't. As fantastic as my memory is, I don't remember saying those words to you. If I was given another chance, I would. I would tell you I love you if I knew you wouldn't open your eyes again. If I knew, I'd probably tell you not to leave me. I'd tell you that I don't want you to die. Ever.

I've always wondered, how our family would turn out to be if you were still alive. Would it be this dysfunctional? Probably you could've been the one who'd have faith in me when it comes to basketball. I'm not saying that I'm that good, but dad thinks I can't play for nuts. You've seen me play, you should know how good or bad I am at it. It really is demoralizing. I can say for sure that he still thinks the same. I know you've seen me play, and I know you'd tell him to not be so hard on me about playing basketball if you could. What if you were alive? Would you have seen me play? Probably not, because I don't see any parents coming to schools at which schools from all over the district go to to compete.

Do you remember, mom?

You bought me a brand new Garfield pencil box, but the next day in kindergarten I traded it away for a black pencil case which wasn't the least bit as awesome as the one you got me. I'm sorry.
I was the one you brought shopping for kitchen accessories. You chose various designs of Garfield plates.
I asked you what was the meaning of the word 'marry' while I was watching your favourite soap opera with you. When you said it means, settling down with someone you love, I said that when I grow up, I'd marry you. You burst out laughing.
You helped me get my arm (which was stuck in between the openings of the wooden sofa. Yes, I'm too lazy to try and explain and it'll probably be too difficult for me for my english language isn't as good as some of my other friends.) out of the two-seater wooden sofa that one morning.
I asked you what was for lunch, and you said McDonald's. We went out, all of us and lunch wasn't McDonald's. I cried, and shouted at you, calling you a liar. You vomitted shortly after. I blamed myself, and stopped crying and shouting. I linked this incident to your death and blamed myself for your death too. I told Lester that I blamed myself, and like a brother, he told me off, saying that I'm stupid and that it wasn't my fault. I'm sorry for shouting at you, I'm sorry for calling you a liar.
I'd get so happy when you buy me that powdered flour chewy kuih with peanuts and sugar inside. I'd remind you to get them for me if you were going to the market. (I think it's called 'mo chi' kuih or was it 'ma chi'.)
The minute I found out you were no longer breathing, I shouted at Lester "MOMMY DIED ALREADY!! MOMMY DIED ALREADY!!" with tears which didn't seem to stop rolling down my cheeks, Lester too, was in tears. My shouting at him probably only made it worse for him. Was I loud enough? Could you hear me?

Do you remember? Because I do. All memories of you were when I was 6 and younger.

Before I end this post, I'd like to ask you for forgiveness. I'm sorry for whom I once was, I'm sorry for what I once did, I'm sorry for everything. Regardless of how bad I've screwed up, I have a feeling you won't leave me. I have a feeling that you're always looking out for me, no matter where it is that I am, no matter what it is that I'm doing. You're probably even the reason why I've never ever gotten my phone extorted, unlike my friends. I used to go to college at supposedly a place where extortion and snatch thefts are a norm, but I made it through 2 semesters without a scratch. Kye Min who was walking home from the LRT station about 15 minutes from his house got his phone snatched about a week ago. 2 semesters, and still fine. In both PJ's housing area and Setapak's. I'm sorry for who I might turn out to be, I'm sorry for mistakes which I've yet to make, I'm sorry if I've disappointed you.

Whatever the reason you for not telling me that you were about to leave, I'm sure you made the right choice. I do not blame you. Thank you for protecting me.

Like that of your beauty,
My love for you,
Will be forever.
I've loved you,
I love you,
And I always will.
And I may be a little late,
But, Happy Mother's Day.

and even if you had already left me because of my sins,
you will always remain a part of me,
I have but one mother,
it's clear that you're still in my heart,
you'll always be.

So tell me, have you told your mother you loved her today? I have. And yes, I cried and cried when I typed this post. I'm going to change my t-shirt now, this one's covered in tears and mucus. :) Would anyone like to purchase it on eBay?

Bottled up.

2009-05-19T20:26:00.004+08:00

I want to talk to you, I want to tell you how my day went, but somehow, I get the feeling that you don't want to listen to my stories. So, regardless of what took place on my side of the world today, I'm keeping em to myself. I'll try not to be myself.

"you actually think you can win? I have Mirza and Adlan on my team" These were the words I said to Lingesh before our futsal match today. I will not forget today, it's safe to say that I nearly lost a friend. What happened? Lingesh collapsed halfway during the game, saying that he can no longer breathe. I always tend to feel really helpless whenever something like this happens. Anyway, there we all stood, watching. There we all stood, helplessly. Minutes passed, can you imagine? Someone couldn't breathe and we took minutes to finally agree on taking him to the hospital. Foo Soon carried Lingesh to a bench, and Hameer didn't hesitate to use his car to send Lingesh to the hospital. (I'll cut out a few stuff from today's incident here) I tagged along, so it was Hameer, Lingesh and I in the car. Fakrullah wanted to tag along, but I said, there's no space and there's not enough time for me to get out of the car just so you can get to the back. (it was a car with only two doors, like the concept of a Satria) So we drove off, I could see just how much Hameer wanted to hurry. He drove off, then the guys shouted "WAIT FOR LINGESH'S IC!!" (meanwhile, inside the car, lingesh was coughing away) Hameer was like "Ling, I'm taking you to the clinic now" and started driving again. That's when the guys shouted "HIS IC!!", which made Hameer lose it. He got down of the car and took the IC.

I could see just how indecisive he was, I suppose it's because the minute he volunteered to send Lingesh to the clinic (Hameer thought of sending Ling to the clinic, but Ling requested for University Hospital, so yeah.. that explains why I've been using 'hospital' and 'clinic') he took responsibility for a life, a life of a friend whom he isn't even close to. He wanted to make sure that his friend will make it through, and yet a small (rather insignificant) blue card, could get in the way of him fulfilling that responsibility which he voluntarily accepted. I don't see why, the IC had to leave at the same time as we (Hameer, Ling and I did) did, couldn't the rest of the guys bring it along?

I was left to talk to Lingesh, left to make sure he stays conscious. I was in front seat, I turned around and held his hand. Telling him it'll be okay, that it's only a short journey. Telling him that everything's going to be fine. He was squeezing onto my hand, and eventually, he let go. He lost consciousness even before we could reach the hospital. Trust me, no matter how much I slapped his face, he didn't wake up. It was then I started thinking, and shed a tear or two. He knows he's Asthmatic, his chest was in pain and he knew that, but all because he hates losing more than any other person I know, he didn't give up until the end. He just kept pushing himself, knowing that he was probably already over his limit. That's Lingesh for you, someone who will never give up until the end. (okay, before any of you get a heart attack, Lingesh is alive okay. Alive and dumb and reckless) We're so not playing futsal with Lingesh anymore =.= He steps on the court and we'll voluntarily forfeit.

I've always hated being in a hospital. It smells different, it gives out a certain vibe. Obviously I don't hate being in a hospital because of the smell. It's the feeling of being in one. Maybe because I've been through something no one at a young age should've been through. No one. There's nothing happy about a hospital, it's just a place full of pain and sorrow. I hate hospitals. It's a stupid place.

I have so many questions for you, because that's just who I am. But I'm not going to ask, even though I really wish I could know the answer to them. And if any of you think that it's the girl whom I've blogged about on my other blog, it's not. I'm done and over with that. It's someone else, and no I do not like her, nor am I interested in trying for her. I'm done and over with girls for now as well. No that doesn't mean I'm gay. (Although I saw Faeez today and I find him hot, NOT in the guy type of hot, but the girl type of hot. Seriously, get a hair cut. After seeing you today, it's CLEARLY not the other guy's fault for grinding you in M.O.S.) I just, don't want to have anything to do with girls for a while. Yes, this just goes to show how much I've changed. However, I can't seem to NOT care about her. (again, not referring to the girl I once blogged about on my other blog) urm.. thank you for everything up to this day.

Stop, read, watch & read again.

2009-05-14T05:51:00.005+08:00

I saw this on Yahoo's main page while I was signing in and out of my e-mail account. Anyway, I have a friend who posses the laugh of a Hyena. What's a Hyena? Go watch Lion King. The animal that laughs like a psycho. Haha, but no Kim Kiew, I'm not trying to say you laugh like a psycho. ANYWAY, it was after I finished watching this video that I thought to myself "I wonder if Kim Kiew can match his laugh." Maybe the guys and I should crack Kim Kiew up so he would laugh his hyena laugh. Then we'll have a video showdown. I'll be recording your every move.

This is the video of the man who possibly has the world's worst laugh. He might be a fake, some people seem to think so. You can go read the comments on youtube. One of them said "I wanna reach through the screen and slap the shit out of him for laughing like that." Hahaha.

This next video is a video one of my friends told me to watch. Credits go to Esther for telling me about the video, I watched this 2-3 times. Haha.

The funny part was the "stay away from juliet!!!!" haha.

Last video. Remember the saying 'save the best for last?' :p Haha, I know you can find this on Zainul's blog. But I'm just going to post it here anyway. I kinda think that these girls are super wow-wow. Haha. First, they're cute. Secondly, they're pretty. Thirdly, they're hot. Last but not least, they're sexy ;D Especially in shorts. hahaha. Credits go to Zainul for finding out about this group named Girls Generation on a Hentai website. Oops, I let that one slip. HAHA, oh come on.. who's judging?

I like this video SO much, that increased the size for this one. Haha, but it exceeds the border and blocks the view of the sidebar. Looks really retarded. Haha, Zai is right. They really do make your day when you're feeling down or unhappy. I find their lyrics really cute, it makes me laugh. "gee gee gee gee, baby baby baby." "no no no no no" "oh oh oh oh oh" Haha.

words words words

I take the blame. I take it all. For posting that you, Acktugalakalachikamatukon, are gay on the "World Wide Web". And I'm sorry, I only did it just for the fun of it. I kinda find it funny. Haha, okay seriously. I'm trying to apologize here. So basically, you're telling us (the guys) that you're not going to hang out with us just because we ~~think you're gay?~~ know you're gay? So you're telling me that, even though I did what I did as a joke, you can't take it? What about when the other guys joke about you being gay, you get angry? Note that I didn't leave out 'joke' in both sentences. Then what about when you start working in the future? What about REAL assholes giving you REAL shit? What would you do? You're just going to quit your job? I'll tell you what you can do, why don't you GROW UP? If you can't take the shit we give you, when we aren't even serious, what are you going to do in the long run when you're working? There are bigger, meaner jerks out there, and you think they're just going to offer you cupcakes and ice-creams when you're working in the same building as them? You think they're going to put their arm around you like Adlan does? You think they're going to wear sleeveless shirts for you just like how Chun Lim and Kim Kiew do? (this is just a figure of speech. The names mentioned above are actually random people I just thought of and what I said may or may not be true.) No man, think again. They're going to give you SHIT. Figuratively. Maybe even literally. Haha. And you need not prove yourself to anyone, we don't really care if you're gay or straight. We don't really care if you can get a girlfriend at the end of the month or not. Why change who you are when you can be yourself? And so maybe you're gay, but that means happy man! what more could you ask for than to be gay? (and by the 2nd 'gay' I meant homosexual. HAHA, okay no seriously.. I meant 'happy') Can you just be yourself? You hung out with your 'special' group in high school and not our group for a reason. When there's a problem you solve it, you don't run away. The problem here is not that you're gay, you don't have to make everyone around you happy, the guys and I, we're not worth you being straight. Don't sacrifice your homosexuality for us. (hahahaha, okay I'm just fooling around, BUT it does make sense.) At the end of the month, whether you get yourself a girlfriend or a boyfriend, you will still be, Acktugalakalachikamatukon. You will still be Adlan's Acktugalakachikamatukon. The one you'll always pick up and send home, the one you'll always secretly stare at when he's not looking. You will still be Kim Kiew's Acktugalakalachikamatukon. The one you constantly try to get close to when you're in the steam room with him after working out. You will still be Chun Lim's Acktugalakalachikamatukon. The one whom you've secretly had a crush on every since Form 2 when you moved from 'G' class to 'E' class, the one whom you've 'accidentally' touched in the naughty places when you're playing defense in a basketball game. And to the rest of us, you will be George. I'M NOT TRYING TO MAKE FUN OF YOU OKAY, I'M TRYING TO HELP YOU. Although yes, I may have seemed to joke a little bit. But that's not the point. The point is, your eyes need to be opened. BY THE WAY THIS IS NOT A HINT OR A GREEN LIGHT FOR YOU TO HIT ON ME OKAY?! I MEAN IT.

And this is for.. me, myself and I.

Don't get yourself too attached. Don't get into trouble. It may not be easy, considering the fact that you accomplish two things at once, considering the fact that the utility gained is doubled within a single move. Yes this is my attempt at keeping things subtle, keeping the content of this message hidden.

I wish you understood me more. A different time, a different place. Maybe..

Sabishii.

2009-05-12T07:11:00.003+08:00

I just got home from a rather early breakfast with David. We left at 4 a.m (I wanted to eat whereas he wanted to just drink and NOT study at home. haha.) for William's, but unfortunately it was closed already. So I decided that we should go to Kayu Nasi Kandar, and so we did. I had Iced Milo, roti bakar, telur separuh masak 2, and iced water. David had air suam. Which should've been what I should have considering I have cough, but.. but.. I love Iced Milo. Haha. (yes, I want to die. Don't you cry when I'm not around. When nobody assists you, when nobody chats with you, don't you cry okay? haha.) Before someone comments about my blog having not enough pictures, I guess I should upload this.

Anata no koto wo zutto kangaete iru.

I know I know, why in the world would anyone upload a picture like this, right? Haha, it's not like I have any better pictures to upload. Eggs. Even eggs reminds me of someone. Someone who would order 'char siu fan' with egg. Haha. "+ dan"

Sigh. So.. some of you may not know who I'm talking about. Maybe some would. Maybe. I have a rough idea, someone knows, and I think he would talk to me about it. Sigh, but I can't help it.

As I said, "anata no koto wo zutto kangaete iru."

Thanks for asking me to listen to this song, I suppose you can say that I.. like it. I probably don't understand the lyrics, but WHATEVER. Okay, I know some of the lyrics. The sisters are saying "I know... *something something something*" Yes, that's all I know. And yet, I seem to play it over and over again. I don't know, it's just soothing. It makes me feel, calm.

and when I thought that the day would've just been dull,
i played the song and watched the video,
and eventually.. you came.

P/S : NO LIN YI I'M NOT HITTING ON ANY GIRL NOR AM I TRYING FOR ANY GIRL. I'M GOING TO STAY SINGLE. I think. I'm really trying here. But why do I get the feeling that something's growing? Ugh, I hate myself. I seriously don't want to get myself into any more bullshit.

Maybe I really should die, cough blood and die. Yeah maybe then my guy friends will regret not buying me cough medicine. Haha, maybe. And maybe, just maybe I can see someone cry. Haha. I don't know if you're reading this, but yeah.. I'm blogging about you!

Is it really disgusting?

This is me setting MY blog on fire.

2009-05-06T14:50:00.005+08:00

Have you watched and heard Zai and David argue over who has more papers to resit for? It's really really funny. Like Zai-scratching-his-balls-in-public-funny. Yes yes, he doesn't do it anymore. I know. Anyway, it went something like this..

Zai : David, decide what you want to do with your life la. Lex, David has been in college for 1 year and he still doesn't know what he wants to do.
David : JO CHILLINGGGGG (okay he didn't say this, but I figured since this is a HELP college conversation, It'd fit in just fine. plus if I didn't admit to bogus-ly putting this in, I don't think anyone would think it's bogus. now to those of you who don't know, HELP college guys say JO CHILLINGGGGG in EVERY line. I kid you not. haha.) I'm not flying off straight after college, I'll be taking a year off.
Zai : pfft. A year off. As of right now also you already are. Skipping class and everything.
David : ....
David : Don't talk like YOU go to classes okay, everytime I see Suff I'll ask him "where's zai?" and you know what he will say ar? He will say "zai? zai never come to college la!"
Zai : ...
Zai : Then you? Everytime I see Haikal(or was it Manesh? I'm beginning to think I know a lot of HELP college guys even though I don't go there =.=) I'll ask him "where's david?" and he'll be like "david? HAHAHAHAHA. then he walks off."

then they started arguing over who has more papers to resit for. REALLY good. haha.

Zai, David, and I were waiting for Kye Min to come. As you can see from the picture below (scroll down and look at the first picture first, then scroll back up!) this was where we were sitting. So Zai was like "there, kye min" I looked behind of course, and Zai went like "got you there!" I was sitting at Zai's 1 o'clock, while David was sitting next to me - in front of Zai.

I was determined to get him back, I let a few minutes pass. Then I pointed to the direction of the field behind Zai - which btw was S.M.K (L) La Salle's field - and said "there, kye min" and they both looked! Got you there!, wakenabeb!, punk'd!, candid camera! As you can see below, in this picture, there's no possible way Kye Min could've came from that direction. Unless he climbed over the fence.

(Zai lighting a cigarette) It's a good thing his parents know he smokes. Oh well, I suppose the "ALA MAMA TAK SPORTING LA..." would've saved him from this one though! ;) Oh and Ju? Don't break his cigarettes in half! You're only making him smoke without filters. Throw the whole box away next time, I've got your back! Though I'm pretty sure everyone else already do.

Are you ready? I'm about to set MY blog on fire. Haha. Okay, due to a certain anonymous comment. Telling me that my blog lacks pictures, I instantly took pictures the next day at Raju's.

I always found this cool.

A good photographer takes the same picture from various angles. Trust me on this one. haha.

Are you happy now? haha.

Rappuh! - lady in blue

2009-05-03T19:42:00.004+08:00

Now I don't expect any of you to FULLY understand this. The only people that would FULLY understand this would be Najee, David, Praevin, Abel, and Adlan. (I know, not the brightest sets of minds :p but yeah, they'll understand this) And Lin, no i'm not seeing anyone or have my eyes locked on anyone. I know better this time, I'm not getting myself involved! Be there for me k! :)

Lady in blue

When I first saw you,
you were dressed in blue,
what's stuck in the back of my head is you,
and why? I have no clue.

You smiled at me,
a smile so sweet,
left without a name,
because of how we met.

Three two one,
a different time, a different place,
and maybe it's you I'd want,
but we very well know, this is all we get.

So without a name, and without a date,
I bid you farewell, till we meet again.
Apart from leaving without another smile, another glance,
the hardest part was,
leaving with your identity.. a mystery.

Rappuh!

Acktugalakalachikamaktukon the homo.

2009-05-01T05:04:00.003+08:00

Let's first start off with myself la k? Oh this is a long post, but.. it's not an emotional one. So don't be lazy to read la k? :)

"You see that puddle of water? try and wash your stupidity off, even then.. I think it wouldn't work. Pray this doesn't happen again."

Situation : Someone made this girl I liked cry, so I threatened him that if it ever happened again, I would not hesitate to hit him.
Venue : The bridge at S.M.K (L) Bukit Bintang. *the road has a lot of holes, and there's always a puddle of water there*

Why puddle of water? I don't know, it was spontaneous. This line was used in 2007, and I swear, I still hear this quote going around. Well, not the whole quote, but just the "you see that puddle of water?". Sheesh, this quote is more widely used than any politician's in my group of friends.

Okay the next isn't all that famous, but.. it's mine!

"It's over, bitch!"

Situation : Whenever you know that YOU have achieved victory/success, while others haven't. Like.. when you win in DotA or a basketball match. Or when ~~Ronaldinho~~ Rajiv dribbles the ball from one side of the court to the other and his momentum can't be stopped, so he scores. That's when this line comes in handy. The cherry on top the Sundae :D Or or, when the ball reaches David's feet in futsal. Not because it's going to turn into a goal, but because.. ah, let's just not say it alright? He's trying his best! :)

"Look at that fineeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee piece of chicken."

Situation : When you and your guy friends are gathered and probably stoning or doing.. anything at all and a hot girl walks by. Why chicken? I have no idea, it was spontaneous.

David.

"MY HEAD.... *softens voice* no use." :(

Situation : Whenever the ball reaches David during a futsal game and he tries to lift his leg up higher than his head so that he can reach the ball. Oh, and David will only say this line if and only if Rajiv is shouting at David from the other side of the court.

Anirwan.

"Eh F***ER!" (voice is normal at "eh" but goes high pitched at "F***ER!"

Situation : Anytime anywhere.

Zainul

"ala.. mama tak sporting la.."

Situation : When Zainul wants to spend his night outside past his curfew, and his mother is on the phone with him not allowing him to do so. Well, apparently he has gained independence. So I don't suppose you'll ever hear this coming from him again. I THINK.

"ala hazim ___________"

Situation : Whenever his parents disapprove of him doing this or/and that. You should hear the sound of his voice when he says this. Classic :) The blank is because, he uses the "ala hazim" for every line of argument.

I think I'm out of quotes. Anyway, here's a really good one!

The guys and I skipped our weekly Monday assembly and we were all in this one classroom talking away, reading newspaper, and talking away. Eventually, we got busted and this is the highlight of when we got busted.

Agis scolding Chun Lim. (I guess my friends should know, that I really dislike Agis, so that's why I'm not doing him any favors by calling him Mr or anything like that.)

"Who are you? What's your name? How come I've never seen you before? It is boys like you which are the worst, they lay low and do the bad stuff, and then they leave the school. You're like a leech!"

This was major Rolling On the F***ing Floor Laughing (ROFFL) funny! The only reason Agis doesn't know Chun Lim is because Chun Lim has been a goody goody for 5 almost 4 years in school. That is of course, until his infamous conspiracy with none other than the King of Sparta, Zainul Hazim. Which, I will not mention on this blog. Because I have my limits :) Anyway, so yeah. All of us were refraining from laughing on the spot when Chun Lim was getting his balls squeezed by Agis.

This made me remember something else which is really good.

Situation : Cheung Yip wanted to meet up with the rest of us at MMORPG, a cyber cafe, during school hours. (Why were the guys at a cyber cafe during school hours you ask? I wonder why..) He skipped class, and went to the basketball court first. He was shooting around, shooting around. Trust me, he was what inspired Kung Fu Dunk in the first place. (to those of you who don't already know, Kung Fu Dunk is a movie starred by Jay Chou in 2008.) Anyway, then he decided that it was time to climb the back fence and join the guys at MMORPG. (I'd like to take this time out and say that I was sitting in class reading my book, practicing maths, paying attention in class, helping the teachers with their books, the kind of nerd stuff. Yes, that was what I was doing on that day. Sounds very much like me in form 5.) He climbed out, with the basketball btw, which belonged to the Quartermaster. Those who don't know, Agis is our discipline teacher and he is also the teacher in charge for Quartermaster. Okay, so far we know that Cheung Yip climbed out of school with a basketball right? Here's what he didn't know, Agis saw him. The next day, Agis questioned him...

Agis : Yesterday you climbed out and skipped school right?
Cheung Yip (decided to go with the act blur strategy) : huh? > :S
Agis : Don't think I didn't see, I saw you climbing out. With a basketball.
Cheung Yip (knew he was f***ed either way, so he might as well tell ~~the truth~~ some truth) : Oh.. sir, actually I climbed out to bring the ball back in.
Agis : Yeah, and ended up at the cyber cafe with the ball!

At least I think the last line was like that. But.... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! "I climbed out to bring the ball back in"?!?!?!?!?! LOL!

Sigh, first it was ~~soar~~ sore throat. Now it's dry cough. It's been days. I wonder why, I'm not the type that would care for myself enough to buy myself medicine. *hint hint* Anybody wants to show how much they care for me? Guys? NOT HIM PLEASE, OMGROFLWTFBBQPLEASEDONTLETITBEHIM! He who must not be mentioned. He is.. dangerous. That guy is so dangerous, that guy is so dangerous, that guy is a.. hoooooomoooooooooo. OKAY LA, OKAY LA. I'M SORRY FOR CALLING YOU A HOMO. Oh and I'm of course referring to the homo that added me out of the blue, he's from Africa and he claims to be the gay-est person on the planet. Yes, his name is Acktugalakalachikamaktukon. Which also means George in the English language, but I SWEAR IT'S JUST A COINCIDENCE!! Okay okay, I'm sorry again Acktugalakalachikamaktukon. In case you don't know, the post about my friends not telling me about this gay guy liking me, is Acktugalakalachikamaktukon.

Someone get me cough medicine! You should believe in karma! Like Foo Soon does. (I'm not trying to be funny now, so if you laughed, something's seriously wrong with you.)

Life under a rock.

2009-04-29T22:25:00.003+08:00

Ever wondered what it's like to live under a rock? Now you can have a glimpse of what it is like.

This is me having a conversation with my friend. I'm not giving out any names this time.

"LATIKA! LATIKA!" says :
- LATIKA!
- you want slumdog millionaire?
- my pc has
- LATIKA!

|cL| says :
- wads that
- = =

*I got the idea of blogging about this after reading his reply*
*a short while later, without me answering his question*

|cL| says :
- oo
- get from you after exams la
- ><

This friend of mine, he/she didn't know what is slumdog millionaire until he/she google-d it. And that, is life under a rock. :)

(don't be too hard on him, at least he knows google!)

and.. technically, |cL| isn't a name.

Ear Soothing.

2009-04-27T20:02:00.002+08:00

Credits go to Veneon for letting me know about this song via windows live messenger. So random.

More Screenshots!

2009-04-27T14:55:00.004+08:00

Could it be about Anirwan again? Haha. Or could it be someone else? Let's find out.

Btw, I'd first like to take this opportunity to wish both Kenneth Loh Kuan Meng (okay, I don't know your chinese name actually. I only know that your initials are KLKM, and that's because of your msn nick. Haha, but Kuan Meng sounds just about right! :D) and also Sherrie Tam Mei Ting (It's Tam Mei Ting, right? Or at least I think it is. Haha, I forgot.) a happy birthday :) Their birthdays were on 26th and 27th of April respectively.

Anyway, here's what happened last night aside from a little ~~flirting~~ interacting at 1.55a.m in the morning. (again, click on the picture to enlarge.)

This really cracked me up. HAHAHA. Just look at Wai Hoong go! :D

Now, shall we move on to our next topic? I think, we should talk about homosexuals. Yes, that sounds like a good topic.

(okay, imagination time. Do you know the voice that narrates the trailers at the beginning of trailers? Usually only for the happy trailers, like.. maybe Bedtime Stories? The part where the voice goes "what would you do if you could.. bla bla bla" Ugh, now I feel bad for David. David, the guy doesn't actually says bla bla bla you know? Bla bla bla could be anything :) like start fire with your eyes, or stop time with your fart or some shit like that, okay?)

What would you do if.. YOU were the crush of a homosexual from your high school and you didn't know it? What would you do if.. YOU were the crush of that homosexual and you were teaching him Maths in McD's?! (Thankfully, along with another homosexual whom btw, wore sleeveless. Thanks for being there Chun Lim, you saved me yet again with your dressed-to-kill attire.)

Okay, now what would you do if you were the friend of the crush of that homosexual and you knew that this homosexual schoolmate of yours has a crush for your friend? Here's what you do, you f**king tell them man! You don't just keept it to yourselves.

Now let's move on to Google. At first I was like, What the f**k is wrong with google? they're always like this. Sometimes you can't even see a letter or two. Oh and of course I'm referring to the almost-everyday-changing 'Google' on the top of the search bar. I was looking looking, how does this even look like a 'G'? or an 'O'? Seconds later I was like, oh right. Dots and dashes! This must be 'google' in Morse Code. Tada~ ;D

Despite everything, I will not allow myself to be consumed by the darkness. What I may become, should I allow, would only make more people unhappy. With that said, I will not change. Regardless of whatever may befall me.

Anirwan fun fact #367

2009-04-25T21:00:00.007+08:00

ANIRWAN, THIS IS MY EVERYDAY CIBAI-NESS. SO, DON'T GET ANGRY AT ME WEI!

(oh btw readers, the pictures need to be enlarged. Just click on it, and it doesn't open in a new page, so.. ugh. I'm too lazy to explain, figure it out yourselves =.=)

Here's a shocker. The first 366 was expected, but trust me, you DON'T want to know.

Anirwan fun fact number 367 : He picks up things that we (his friends) litter!

Okay, but obviously it's to a certain limit. He doesn't pick up EVERYTHING. Though he picks up the little things like papers to sweet wrappers and stuff like that.

I just found out today. Amazing huh? I've known him since 2004, and I haven't seen him picked up after any of our friends, but today.. the truth is out.

Quote Anirwan : "save the world, save our lives." "change, starts from one person. maybe one day, each and every one of our friends might follow after me and save the world."

And just so everyone is clear about the line where Anirwan said "and if you pull a prince of tennis on me again, no way i'll forgive you", I'll first satisfy Chun Lim's curiosity. No Chun Lim, it is NOT a new Kamasutra position. It is probably one of the best Japanese Anime. (you perv. hahaha.) Oh, and I kinda like.. made Anirwan wait at home for 25 minutes with the excuse that I need time to get ready before we go out for DotA at INC in SS2. It was then that the Japanese Anime got too exciting that I told him I have stomach ache even after taking a shit (which is TRUE by the way!) and asked him if he was considering going without me, but he said I'm going no matter what. He reached my house when I was only 5 minutes into one episode. It was then he called and asked me to come out of my house. So I made him wait for like another 17 minutes outside my house just so I could finish watching my episode. He didn't even let me hang up, well.. I did hang up on him once after telling him I need more time, but he called back and demanded for an answer. That's when I was like "how am I going to get out of this one? Think Lex, think!" So I said "I'll tell you later when I get in the car!" and hung up.

When I got in the car.. I just kept quiet, he then asked "what were you doing?" So I answered "you don't have to know, just know that.. it was worth it. you waiting that is." Then he asked me again, that's when I looked out the window and pretended not to hear anything, then he asked again. So I said "it's best you don't know." so he kept bugging and bugging, that's when I told him the truth. It was a good day. Prince of Tennis is awesome.

And notice that I've censored quite a few stuff in picture 3. I'm trying to keep my blog PG-13. I'm not saying that you're encouraged to say the F word at the age of 13, but.. oh you get the picture. Stay in school! (oh the irony of it coming from the guy who pulled out of college =.=)

I've also censored the name of Anirwan's best friend. For his/her/its protection. (it applies for everything that has breath. even imaginary ones.)

Anirwan.. don't get angry la. Actually I'm just checking to see if you do read my blog or not. Haha, eh chillax la. You're not going to be the only one.

Make peace, not war.

Changed.

2009-04-23T18:09:00.003+08:00

I'm not proud of whom I've become, or how I've acted in the past 2 months. In fact, I should hate myself. I should, but I don't. A little part of me is saying that whatever my intentions were, is not a big deal.

I've never thought that I would be this guy. Pathetic. Could 'pathetic' be an understatement? I don't know, maybe. Maybe it is.

I've received comments about me, saying things like I have a good heart and such, but who I am today, what I thought of, what I did, they were all on the contrary of what others seem to think of me. Yes, I'm torn in between two things. One, I'm glad whatever my intentions were, didn't take place. Two, I hate how it didn't take place. It would've been great. It probably wouldn't have fixed me, but it would've taken my mind off things.

What have I become? I need time to be who I really am, it doesn't seem to be going very well though. I need help.

I don't know why I uploaded this, but it just seems to fit the mood. I'm deleting this picture off my comp after this. Thanks for walking out on me.

Wilson vs Marley

2009-04-22T21:43:00.004+08:00

The only movie that has ever made me cry was Cast Away. That is until.. I'll get to that later. It was this particular scene where I think (I THINK) a storm took out Chuck's (Chuck Nolan - played by Tom Hanks) raft on which his 'friend' Wilson was on together with Chuck. To those of you who know who I'm referring to, you'd very much know how exactly Wilson looks like. The question remains for those who do not know who is Wilson (or should I say.. what is wilson?).

Wilson is a Volleyball. Here's the funny part, its name is Wilson because the brand of the ball is Wilson. Haha.

Anyway, back to my point. (If there's one that is.) I'm not sure if I remembered it correctly, but Chuck woke up the morning after the storm. He then realized that Wilson was nowhere to be found. Then I THINK he saw Wilson from his raft and tried to swim towards it and retrieve it. (or him. whatever.) Here's a short video of the scene, couldn't find a better one. The sound is really soft for this video so I'd recommend that you increase the volume of your speakers before watching it. You should listen to Tom Hanks in this video :p

Cast Away - Lost Wilson (The Movie)
Uploaded by goldrausch

I can't believe it, hahaha. It's funny, when I think of it now. Hey, I was only standard 5 when I watched that movie on VCD, a pirated one at that, so you can't blame me crying.

Maybe it wasn't such a good idea to use that as an excuse, because.. I recently watched this other movie which made me cry. It wasn't even shedding a few drops of tears, but cry as in cry. Ugh. (Oh and I'm only sharing all this because I randomly thought of Cast Away earlier tonight. Which then led to the Wilson scene, and then to Marley and me.) Yes, the movie that I was referring to was Marley and me. It is indeed a sad movie, Onirvern Joshan Chowdhury (this is SO totally NOT obvious.) agreed with me.

Spoiler alert! To those who haven't watched the movie, you may not want to read the next few lines. It'll spoil the movie for you.

Anyway, yeah. Marley died in the end. The whole sad ending shit begun when Owen Wilson was pillow talking to Marley. Seriously, some sad shit. Ask Onirvern. (not obvious right? I'm telling you, I'm gooooooOOOOooood. Okay no seriously, that's how his name is SUPPOSED to be pronounced, BUT don't even bother! Because supposedly if you do not have an Indian accent, you will definitely be unable to pronounce 'Onirvern') He would know. I'm too lazy to go look for the video, so I'm just going to go play DotA now. I have a newbie waiting for me. Someone by the name pop4u, who by the way, probably only thought of that name through his perv-filled brain of his. It doesn't take a genius to figure out what his DotA nickname truly means. pop4u as in, pop your cherry + for + you. Duh!

Conclusion : maybe I only cried to Marley and me because watching it reminds me of my really old Labradoodle, Max. Whom by the way, has been in my family since standard 3. That's even older than.. my puberty? If you're laughing, that's cool. If you're laughing AT me, and you are of the same age as I am, think again! Anyway.. yeah. I guess even though I don't treat my dog well enough, even though I don't play with it, even though I don't take it for walks, even though I've only probably given him a bath for no more than 3 times maybe, I still don't want it to die. Just knowing he's around is good enough. (and.. luckily someone forgot to watch this movie with me. It would've been embarrassing. I'm not so sure if 'luckily' is the right choice of word though.)

I'm moving on. You took away everything.