Update.

I'm going to start things off with my Happy 3rd month, then only about work. (If I feel like it. lol.)

Unfortunately, My LG Secret is spoilt at the moment so I couldn't take a picture of the card I made for my girlfriend on our Happy 3rd month. (Not that it's that good anyway. >_> ) So yeah.. There won't be any pictures for this post. (Surprise surprise) Anyway, here's a piece of advice for you readers. Never ever get flip/slide phones. They're screwed up inventions. iPhones too, hear that love? :p

Let's see..

Happy 3rd Month love. :)

Why is it that I tell you everything that I've done in my past life inclusive of my sins and mistakes?

Because I want you to know me before it's too late for you to back out, because I want you to love me for who I was, who I am, and who I may be in the future.

Why is it that I always always have really long messages waiting to be read by you whenever you wake up? (even though it's only going to be a short nap. To my readers who don't know what is it that I do, I send really long messages to my girlfriend whenever she's asleep. Like maybe.. 18 messages long? On my girlfriend's birthday I sent her a 42 messages-long good night message. w00t, crazy boyfriend. Anyway, I used to only send them whenever I'm about to go to sleep. Hence, only during the night. However, NOW I send them whenever she's asleep. It's so that..)

It's so that when you wake up, you will always remember why is it that you liked me in the beginning. Because I've always been one to have long messages waiting to be read by you when you wake up. It's so that you will feel special, because you deserve to feel that way :)

Why is it that I always always start every message that I send to you whenever you are asleep with 'I love only you. :)'?

Because that is what I want you to know the instant you wake up. I want you to know that I love only you and that my heart doesn't belong to anyone else but you. :)

Why is it that I always open the door to the car for you first?

Because I love you and surprisingly.. it feels nice. (besides, I've promised you that I would always always open the door for you first. ;D and you know I'm not all talk. I will be the same person 3 years, 24 years into our relationship as I was 3 months into our relationship.)

Why is it that I have always always been there, outside your school, whenever you are done?

Because if every time you are going to be on the look out for me whenever school's out, then that's where I'll be. Because I know that if you were to be on the look out, you would have a little hope that I might be there. I don't want you to look around only to find that I am not there. Because I love you and I will always always be there for you. Both figuratively and literally. :) I don't ever want you to feel disappointed or upset.

Why is it that you are the only girl that I feel like holding her hand as I introduce her to my father as my girlfriend even though I clearly know that my father doesn't want me to be dating at this age?

Because I love you. Because I love only you. Because no other girl has loved me, because no other girl has given, because no other girl has sacrificed as much as you do. Because you are meant for me, because you.. are my soul-mate. :) Because we're serious, because if I were to want to bring you for Chinese New Year dinners with the Gan family, this is the first step. Because my father will have to accept you one day, and it starts on the 2nd night after SPM. You wouldn't have any problems right? Considering it's just SO EASY to make conversations with parents, is it not? :)

(oh shoot, I just woke my girlfriend up for tuition a little too early. Totally forgot that she ate lunch already, so she doesn't need an hour to get ready for tuition. Woops. lol. Oh well, she loves me, that's why she puts up with it. Haha. Yet to face your wrath huh?)

EmiLy, I've never been more serious than this. After SPM, the second night after SPM, you will be coming over to my house for dinner and when I introduce you to my father as my girlfriend I will be holding your hand. Here's to us, forever and a day plus eternity. :)

Happy 3rd month again, love :)

p/s : why is it that I comply to all your requests?

because I love you and I'm only capable of the little things like these.

P / s s : why is it that I've given you the 'final say' on who gets to pay all our dining out bills?

Because I love you, because I know it'll make you feel better that I don't pay everything every time. and I know that if I don't give you the final say, I'll be the one paying every time. I love you. Only you. :)

No time to blog about work btw, some other time la. It's not important anyway. Lul.

I'm yours as you are mine. :)

I love you.

Did it ever occur to you that I just KNOW?
Know that you will still love me that is.

Because I believe in you, in us.
Because I believe that what we have is definitely definitely a first for us, and it's nice. (is it not?)
Because I believe you love me.
Because I believe you will be missing me.
Because I believe you have never met a guy like me.
Because I believe in 'Forever and a day + eternity'.
Because I believe that ever since the 4th of June, we've had more fun together than with others.
(you know, I was trying to recall what date was it that we first talked on MSN, and my mind just kept telling me it was the 4th. I checked our conversation history, and it really was.)
(Reading old conversation history is rather nice huh? Did you know that we talked for almost an hour without pause the first time on MSN? Like, we didn't bother about anything else.. but each other. Lol. I guess.. ever since the start, the attraction was already there? :) )
Because I believe.. Don't you, love? :)

Because I believe, EmiLy.
Because I believe, love.
Because I believe in us,
Because I believe what we have is love.
Because you are awesome,
and I'm wonderful.

P / s : I'll be missing you sooo much. :)

P / s s : It's just yet another test. :)

Happy 17th Birthday love. :)

Happy Birthday, Love. ;D

L'occitane's 100 ml Cherry Blossom Eau de Toilette.
Flying in the first breeze of Spring,
Cherry blossom is so rare and precious.

Spring huh? My Miss Japanese Springtime. :) Yeah.. I guess no one else would understand this nickname huh? I love you.

Happy 17th Birthday, again. ;D I'm sorry, but I forgot to take a picture of the card I made for you. (which I spent 4 hours working on. but yeah, not important :p) So.. I don't have many pictures (only have this one picture -_-) to go around. I'm also sorry that I forgot to remind you to take pictures yesterday, and for not remembering myself. Ugh. I love you Emily, and yesterday.. has got to be the best day for this year thus far. I thank you. :)

Yes, so maaaaaaaaaaaybe I splurged a little too soon with a gift like that. For some reason, I wasn't hesitant nor reluctant. Which was a first really, I wonder why. I've never been one to spend much on gifts for people, and even if I did I'd be secretly hoping that I hadn't. Then I'll wonder why is it that I feel that way. Anyway, my point is.. I've never felt like it was 'Okay' to splurge like that. I'm pretty sure it's a first, I'm pretty sure I love you. :) *kisses EmiLy's left cheek.*

Let's move on to the birthday celebration. (sorry Yuki, failed to take pictures. Another picture-less post. This is obviously if you're still reading. lol.)

"Oh look! A cow!" Hahahahahaha. Okay, no more on this.

The celebration huh? Let's see.. where to begin? where to begin..? I recalled you telling me that you like Curry Puffs with fillings in it, like.. with eggs and chicken and stuff. (obviously with the usual curry and potatoes as well.) And I remember there being a really good curry puff stall in SS2. So I took the effort in getting you one, because I'm like that, I'm going to spoil you. With things you like. (wait till you see what I have for you today! your actual birthday.) Note that I've never tried the curry puff for myself, so I'm sorry there weren't any egg or chicken in it. -_- I'm glad you haven't had breakfast then, my impulse on getting you a curry puff turned out to be beneficial after all. *psst* You looked amazing love. :) Indeed your fashion sense is different than that of others, you amaze me :) Aishiteru yo. I'm sorry for letting the little things get to me, I'll be better.

Not long after, we left for OU. Having lunch at Korean BBQ Plaza. It was my first time there. It was fun. Haha. It's a place where you have to cook your own food btw. Somewhat like Steamboat, you get the idea right? Anyway.. Lunch was alright. Now, I WOULD say amazing. But when your girlfriend makes you eat a BOWL of cabbage, it really takes away the 'umph!', the kick, in all that's nice. It was like this..

*EmiLy takes a pumpkin and puts it on my plate.*
LexxiE : I don't want.. -_-
EmiLy : You have to try. (padahal sendiri didn't try -_-)
LexxiE : Okay, if I'm trying.. YOU have to try some too. *splits pumpkin by 1/4* Here. Try it.
*silence*
LexxiE : Tell you what. You try this, and I'll finish up all the vege on this plate. (yeah.. i just realized. I said 'this plate'.. meaning she made me eat 2 bowls of cabbage, not one!)
*EmiLy instantly reaches for the pumpkin.*
LexxiE : Oh and you cannot make any expression of disgust.
*EmiLy eats the pumpkin*

And I swear.. it was so cute. Lol. Oh love, I'm sorry to have made you eat the pumpkin restricted you from making any expressions. Haha. (anyway.. continuing) So yeah, my girlfriend thought that it would only be fair that she avenge herself by making me eat 2 bowls of cabbage. I only made her the deal in the first place because I know she doesn't like wasting food. So.. to ensure that the girlfriend is happy, I ate them cabbage. AND! in case you people don't already know (and I'm not referring to only the black people. Woosh.~ okay that was uncalled for. Haha. I think.. only a small amount of people will actually get this?) I dislike eating vegetables. I don't eat them greens. I have a theory : Whatever's healthy, isn't tasty. And vice versa. Love, don't be sorry don't feel bad. :) I was completely willing to eat them, as long as you go home smiling at the end of the day :) You looked adorable when you cooked the Calamari btw. Haha. (oh yes yes. Lunch was with her best friend and also a classmate. where are my manners? Haha. Woosh.~ Apparently they were sympathetic of me, looking at me eat the bowls of vege.)

Lunch ended and we went for pool by the bowling alley, and my girlfriend continues to amaze me. :) She's no dead weight in a team-match. :p unlike her guy friends. HAHA. Okay okay.. It was fun. I'm amazed by my girlfriend. Hmm.. [oh before I forget.. I guess it's (almost almost almost) safe to say that I've rediscovered my touch a little so like.. BRING IT BITCHES! This obviously directed to my friends. Lol. A little practice and I should be back to normal. The top.~ HAHA. Oh they must be swearing their pants off right now.] The day ended there for the group, and I got to have some time alone with my girlfriend. ;D

Let's just say.. the day turned out to be perfect. What with dinner and all. I listed 4 places for her to choose from to have dinner. (considering that she wasn't allowed to leave OU and head to curve with me. Otherwise Tony Roma's would be in the list as well.. and other choices of course.)

1. Chili's.
2. Dave's.
3. T.G.I.F.
4. Jack's Place.

Chili's was her original choice, but we were in a hurry and there was a waiting line. So we had to settle for somewhere else. Hence she chose T.G.I.F. She was supposed to be home by 8, but we stayed out till 9. The best part was.. her mother didn't say anything. ;D And it was her first time staying out till 9 with friends. I continue to wonder why things seem to be going our way.

My girlfriend further amazes me with the way she eats. Oh love, you truly are different aren't you? :) It was a great day, and I ended it with a birthday song at midnight. To come think of it, I've never personally sang a birthday song to anoyone. It'll be our little tradition alright? Just between you, and I. :)

If this year's celebration isn't already your best birthday celebration ever,
every year I'll be trying.
This is the best of me,
and only you are getting it.

Lay low. Bury everything.

We'll each take half.

'Chi Lang Chi Puah'

Lol. That is how you say "we'll each take half" in Hokkien. Hmm, so it appears that my girlfriend on a totally random day came up with this totally random idea of having string bracelets. It's a nice idea. ;D The other day, she tied strings on my right wrist. 3 strings, Purple, Black, and.. Pink? Anyway.. Yeah, then I asked her "won't you have one as well?" and she said "yeah, i will." I asked her on which hand does she want to have them, she told me to decide and within seconds I decided on her left. That way when we hold hands, we'll both have our string bracelets on our wrists.

It never fails to remind me of you.

Oh oh! It's my girlfriend's birthday in 6 days! ;D To those who are a little slow with their numbers, it means her birthday is on the 27th. ;D Babe, things have been going our way thus far and I know you see it too. Tell me we aren't lucky, tell me we aren't being blessed by the Gods above. You can't can you? :) On your birthday, things will go our way as well >=] I'll see to it that it does. I will make you happy.

A little random-ness can make people happy.
Thank you, EmiLy. :)

I've waited 19 years for you.
I love you.

What goes around comes around.

Before I begin, I'm sorry to only two people. Firstly, the one who is most important to me, my girlfriend. The other person, is of course Lee Lin Yi. I'm apologizing because of the things I'll say in this post. Ugly things. Consisting of a lot of F words. Somehow.. I feel that Lin Yi would be the one most disappointed with me.. (my girlfriend will accept me for who I am, so yeah.. I think I'll be fine. Won't I, Love? >_< you are asleep, I hope you are sleeping well. I miss you, so so much. More than you know ;D and of course, I love you.) so yeah.. forgive me Lin Yi? :z it's just.. I'm sick of all the bullshit.

I've had enough. You're disgusting. I'm even going to say your name, so that everyone reading my blog would know. Cause really, I couldn't care less. chin lee shan, get a life.

Tonight I've decided to erase you completely, I've removed you from MSN and my phonebook. I've seriously had enough of your shit and I'd rather you leave me be. It's starting to disgust me. I was thinking to myself, as to whether or not I should tell you off. And I thought, "heh.. why waste time, just let her do whatever she wants." A small part of me told myself, it's alright Lexandl, you're not here to hurt anyone. Don't say hurtful things. But tonight, all that changes. Fuck you. Seriously, fuck you, and fuck off. ;D

No I haven't been reading your blog, nor have I bothered to give a shit about you. Because I'm tired of all the shit you've put me through. But I was told to read this one post on your blog, and so I did. It was the one where you let out everything over the past months, of course.. relating to me. The same person who told me to read your blog, also told me that you editted your blog post the minute I changed my 'style'. (yes, I'm protecting this person. Keeping him/her away from your shit. for all you know, it just might someone dear to you. Ohh this is sooo killing you.) Do you remember what YOU did? It's not that I changed all my you's/yours's/etc etc from italized to coloured because of YOUR blog post, I changed even before I read your pathetic little post ranting about me. This same person has both copies of your post, the uneditted one and the editted one. So.. you're actually THAT fucking lifeless as to edit your blog to make it SEEM like you're the one who has made the changes? Hahaha. If pathetic is like here *holds out hand at the lowest possible height* you are HERE *uses the hand of another individual's and places it even lower than my own hand* that's just how pathetic you are.

And I'm sure you've probably complained to your friends about me, I'm not surprised if you've got them going "Yeah lorh, bad guy la he" or whatever the fuck really. Cause it's not like they know the whole story. So you do things like message me about random things like your sister going to Scotland and the lake there and shit. What am i supposed to feel? Moved? Touched? Not by your messages I won't. pft. -_- You say things like "I'm not giving up on this friendship" hahaha, and for what? I've given up on it a LOOOOOOOOOOONG time ago. So yeah, just.. give it a rest?

What exactly do you want me to do? Sit still and STILL take all your shit even though I couldn't care less about you? The fuck I will, to hell with you. The fuck I care if this post will hurt you, you STILL give me shit like as if I'm supposed to care about you, like as if I STILL care about you, *rolling on the floor laughing my FUCKING flat white ass off* the fuck I care if you get hurt and pull yet another one of your sleepless nights, the fuck i care. Go ahead, you're just wasting your time.

Through every separation, there's a loser and a winner. I learned this from the tv series, How I Met Your Mother (oh dear readers, if somehow.. you're STILL reading this, it's a great tv series. Lexandl-approved ;D and.. wow you're still reading. Haha.). And yes, through every separation, there's a loser and a winner. It's obvious who's the fucking loser here, no? ;D Oh I know the type of person you are, you're vengeful. So you'll most probably launch a counter-attack at me through your blog, or somehow. But yeah, know that I won't read it :)

"fucking reply whether I can collect my books or not or you will regret it I tell you. I guaratee you." It's up to you really, whatever you intend to do. Do you want my honest opinion on you? Yes, your attitude really is hateful. You have to change. You'll make me regret, you'll make sure my life will be what, a living hell? You're going to what, get your boyfriend and his friends to whack me up? You're going to what, puncture the tyres of the cars in front of my house? Go ahead, but I seriously hope you don't do anything. Otherwise, they'll just be more signs that you are indeed, absolutely, irrevocably, unequivocally, someone who needs help.

Ieka said "Don't bother talking to people like that, I know how it feels. I learned the hard way.", she and I know better than to bother talking to people who give you shit. With these last words of mine I hope you'll change. Aside from actually carrying your books along with me when I do go to Marks & Spencer, this blog post will be like my last ever time-wasting-on-you activity I'll bother myself with. After I'm done with the books, leave me alone. For all the things we've been through, will you at least give me this much? It's just the way I am.

"stay perfect" you said so, no? If I'm so perfect, then this is me.. being perfect. I'm not one who talks to people whom I've come to an agreement that we'd go our separate ways.

Life with the girlfriend.

This is really really good. ;D Go search for more of his videos.

Yeah yeah, the 'fun' is all in this video. This post is about to turn into one about my life with MY girlfriend again. Xixi xixi~ Anyway, yes guys.. stop reading. You know you guys don't want to. ._.

With her.

First sight.
I like this drawing of me. I look cool. lol :p
Thanks love, you are awesome :)

Well, in case any of you are wondering, my relationship is going really well. I'm happy with where I am today, I'm happy with her, I'm happy because of her. ;D One of the reasons why life is great. Haha. So like.. I woke up the other day at 8AM, and came up with this..

I love but one, I love but you,
Forever and a day, plus eternity,
Live a life with me, one that's new,
Stay by my side, through all calamity. :)

Your perception of love blurry,
Baby don't worry, I'll be clarity,
Your vision now cleared,
For I'm a guy not ordinary.

Taken by surprise, baby make not a sound,
Taken by surprise, my baby fell,
Worried over nothing, for I'm standing my ground,
Arms at ready, protecting my all.. from Heaven and Hell.

I was still in bed, I don't know how I pulled this one off. Woosh. I'm glad you like it. ;D Due to the fact that my girlfriend is still a high-schooler, doing her final year, we don't get to go out much. However, I do get to see her on weekends though. I'd drop by and we'd just talk outside her house, by the gate. It's fun.~ ;D Her father would always say that it's unsafe, so we'd move in to the porch, and then one day.. a shocking turn of events occurred. Her mother actually said "come and sit inside." It was considerably late, but I was invited in. Which really.. makes me happy. For one, not only that she has never been out of the house (after 8) much, but recently she has and her parents don't seem to mind (much. lol) and also because I'm actually allowed into the house so late? but yeah anyway.. it's just.. why is it that I'm allowed into the house so late? It's not helping with my 'arrogance'. Wahaha. Oh well, I hope things will go just fine for us. It has been, and it is. :) For some reason, we seem to get our way everytime.

Could the Gods be giving us their blessings? (:

Poem by the girlfriend.

Lexandl, truly more than love personified,
Someone whom I'm proud to have by my side,
Unchained by misfortune all laws abide,
All that's good, in us, reside.

Shadows of the past stubbornly remain,
In form of ghosts they stay and maintain,
Shrinking away as lights flood in,
Worry not the insignificance of what could've been.

Our lives start now, our gift of time,
It is for our present that I conceive this rhyme,
Together we stand, You and I,
As we bid our ghosts, farewell, goodbye.

A classmate of hers actually took this paper away from her and read everything and misinterpreted it as a break up letter. -___- When asked if why does he think it's a break up letter, he said "there.. farewell, goodbye lor.~". Lol. What class are you in omg?! :p HAHA. I love you, EmiLy. :)

In case all of you don't already know, my girlfriend and I are somewhat.. synchronized. In sync. Occasionally, we'd say/do the same thing in response to something at the same time. Be it around others or alone by ourselves. It happens quite frequently really. Lol.

Thank you again for the postcard and everything else you posted to me in that envelope. I love you, and babe, I'm missing you oh so much :)


Ieka said "yeah.. don't bother talking to people like that. they're just a waste of your time." while smiling away. Haha, she's cool. ;D We should hang out more.

For us, the odds are not against us,
they're with us.
I love you.

The Information.

TV series downloaders, heads up!

1. Gossip Girl - Returns 13th September 2009. (American date, hence meaning we'll only be able to download on the 14th.)
2. House - Returns 20th September 2009.
3. How I Met Your Mother - Returns 20th September 2009.
4. One Tree Hill - Returns 13th September.
5. Smallville - Returns 10th September.
6. Supernatural - Returns 9th September.
7. The Big Bang Theory - Returns 20th September.

Useful information. At least my readers won't get bored of me just yet. Haha.